So in my prayer time lately I have been asking boldly for God to speak to me. Then I have been trying to learn to actually sit and listen. I don't do sit and listen well. I never have. I can sit and talk or move about and try and listen but I never really just sat in stillness and listened.
In the stillness of the last few mornings as I sat at my table I would hear a whisper….John 11. So I would read it and move on. Then I would ask again and I would hear John 11 and I would read it and move on. Finally after a few days of this I realized that God was indeed trying to speak to me. It's funny how we can ask for something and He can give us what we ask and we don't even see it.
I would like to say I know exactly what God was saying to me in this passage but I don't. But I have picked up on a few things that maybe He is saying to me and maybe He wants to say to you. I mean you know the story. Lazarus dies. Jesus doesn't go right away. Mary and Martha both say "if you had been here it wouldn't have happened". Jesus is moved and He weeps. Then a miracle happens. Lazarus gets up. Jesus says "take off the grave clothes and let him go".
Maybe in my reading this God was reminding me that He is here. I mean Lazarus had been dead four days. That can seem like an eternity of pain. I know what its like to feel pain. I have been Mary and Martha in my moments of pain saying "if only you were here God" and "where are you in this". But the truth is He is here. He is working. Even when we think the timing is wrong we need to remember His timing is perfect. The enemy wants to convince us God is not good and that is when we have to stand on the truth of who He is and what we know in spite of whats going on. Our feelings will deceive us Every. Single. Time. my friends. It's time that we press past what we are feeling and acknowledge His presence in our circumstances even if we can't feel it or see it.
Maybe He was trying to strengthen my faith. I sit and ask everyday for things but do I truly believe He is going to answer. When I am asking where have you been God am I trusting in His timing? In verse 40 Jesus says, "Did I not tell you that if you believed, you would see the glory of God?" What do I really believe about God and His power? Do I believe He will come through for me? These are all questions we have to ask ourselves especially in times of struggle. This is all going to work out some day. It might be 4 days, 4 years, or 40 years….we don't know but we do know the end of the story. It ends well for us. We have to keep pressing on towards eternity. He will work it all out.
Maybe He is saying its time to get up! I wonder if I'm still walking around in my grave clothes? Maybe its just time to get up. Trust Him. Move forward. Forgive. Live. He has a purpose for me right here and right now. I don't know about you but I don't want to miss it because I am still sitting here wearing my old self. I want to put on the new self and get up and move on.
So today won't you join me??? Let's remember He is here. No matter what we go through today He is right here beside us. He is a "with" God. Let's have a strong unwavering faith. No more following what we feel but standing on what we know. And if He has said get up then let's get up. Take off the grave clothes and move on!
Be blessed my friends!