Saturday, November 29, 2008

As She Lay Dying....

Is that the name of a movie title???? I can't remember. Anyway, I have spent the last week at hospice watching my husband's grandmother die. There are a lot of lessons that can be learned when you are privileged to witness something like this. I know it may seem odd to call it a privilege but I have had the opportunity to see life coming into the world and I have seen life come to an end and it is a privilege to be a part of this mysterious circle of life that God had ordained before the foundations of the earth. It is very bitter sweet when you know where they are going when its over and you know it is a better place. Grandma Carrie was an awesome grandma. She was full of grace and beauty on the inside and out. She was well loved and it is obvious by the people who have spent this past week with her. She has been surrounded by family and friends. It has been especially sweet to watch her 3 sons and Greg love on her. Seventeen years ago she loved on me. I was a bratty 17 year old having her first great grandchild. She didn't care she loved me and my son just the same. She took care of Chris when he was a baby and I went to work. I don't think I could possibly begin to tell you everything she taught him. She potty trained him and taught him his ABC's and 123's. She taught him to write his name and to pray before every meal. She showed him how to tie his shoes and button his buttons. She walked with him, played with him, mended his clothes, and read to him everyday. I think as I watch her life slowly coming to an end I am impressed the most with the lives she impacted. I know we say it all the time, that relationships are what matters but do we really live it out? I know she did. I can tell you though grandma was beautiful on the outside it was the time she invested in people that mattered the most, she was truly beautiful on the inside. Not her immaculate home, she can't be there now. Not her beautiful hair, she lost that through chemo. Not material things but the people she loved and cared for. I have been blessed to be in her life. I pray that her suffering soon come to an end and I thank God that I have the opportunity to be a part of this family.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

I'm Queen of the Mountain!

Though the cherry trees don't blossom and the strawberries don't ripen, though the apples are worm-eaten and the wheat fields are stunted, though the sheep pens are sheepless and the cattle barns empty, I'm singing joyful praise to God. I'm turning cartwheels of joy to my savior God. Counting on God's rule to prevail, I take heart and gain strength. I run like a deer. I feel like I'm king of the mountain!

Habakkuk 3:17-19 (The Message)

After reading this verse this past weekend and doing my Bible study today I really felt convicted about my behavior lately. I have been once again getting caught up in the worry of life's circumstances. My apples have been worm-eaten lately. I feel like my cattle barns are empty but instead of singing a joyful praise to God I am allowing the enemy to sneak in and make me feel defeated. I read in my quiet time today that the enemy will focus on the past and the future while God's voice will focus on today. He is a God of "right now". One of the keys to not getting caught up in the worry of the past or the future is to just obediently do the next thing God has for us today. Counting on God's rule to prevail. Knowing that it will. We can take heart and gain strength and run like a deer. We can be king (or queen) of the mountain instead king (or queen) of the pit. I don't know about you but I have been queen of the pit for too long and quite frankly I am sick of it. It is too tiring. So today let's commit to sing praises to our Savior in everything we do. Let's not get caught up in tomorrow but just obediently do the next thing today. Look for God in the everyday mundane tasks of your life. When we have our spiritual eyes opened those tasks aren't so ordinary anymore. When we see ourselves as a part of the bigger picture they become pretty spectacular. We will just do this one step at a time. Don't think about the number of times you failed in the past, just concentrate on living victoriously today. Today ladies we will be QUEEN OF THE MOUNTAIN. HALLELUJAH!!!!!!!!!!


Lord forgive me when I let my fears and worry take over. Show me the next thing you have for me today and help me to obediently follow you. Thank you that Your Word tells me when I do this You will make me feel like Queen of the mountain. No more Queen of the pit. You came so I could live a victorious life. Help me today to take hold of all you have for me.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Proud Mama!

Here is my boy!!!!!

Monday, November 10, 2008

Be Still!

The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.

Exodus 14:14

Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for Him; do not fret when men succeed in their ways, when they carry out their wicked schemes.

Psalm 37:7

Be still and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.

Psalm 46:10

Yesterday in church we were reading from Exodus 14. We came to verse 14. I had to look at that verse for a while. The Egyptians where in hot pursuit of the Israelites and Moses tells them to just be still. God will fight for them. I came home and looked into other verses telling us to be still. I really started wondering if we even know what it means to be still. I know I struggle. We live in a society that is never still. We can get a latte at McDonald's 24 hours a day. If we want to shop at midnight we can. Often times even in the quiet stillness of the night we are not still. We lay awake and our mind wonders. We are tormented by our thoughts. All our fears become overwhelming in that moment and even though we are alone and it is quiet we are not still. I wonder how many amazing things we miss because we just refuse to be still and know that He is God and peacefully rest knowing that He will fight for us. He is the same today as He was when the Israelites crossed the Red sea. He is the same today as He was when He calmed the storm in Mark 4 and told the wind to "be still". If even the wind and the seas obey Him why do we think what we are dealing with is too big for Him to handle? Today I want to start learning to be still. Won't you join me? When we get too busy let's cut a few things from our schedule. When we finally have the chance to be in a quiet place then let's have our thoughts "be still". He is God. He will fight for us. We are loved by the King.


Lord, teach me to be still. Reveal yourself to me. Help me to lay all my worries at your feet. Thank you that you fight for me and that you love me.


Thursday, November 6, 2008

Life in the Fast Lane

However, as it is written: "No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love Him.

1 Corinthians 2:9

It all started when I was young. Different situations that seemed to age me a little quicker than most. Then I became pregnant at 17 and became a new mom. By the time I was 25 I had children only a handful of years younger than I was through adoption. I am 35 years old and I have adult children. I have survived rebellious teens and a handful of other "situations". I am now being hurled at the speed of light into another phase of life. My mother-in-law had a stroke two weeks ago and she is coming to stay with us. We are now dealing with "aging" parents. I fear by the time I am 40 I will have been through menopause and I myself will be headed for a nursing home:) These are all the things no one really prepares you for. You know all lifes little "secrets". Like when you had your first child did anyone tell you not to pack those cute little jeans you wore before you got pregnant because there is a good chance you will never wear them again or at least for a while? Or how about this one - you can love a child with every ounce of your being but have moments where your are sure you could lock them up for a very long time. All this to say for all you out there who maybe haven't been through some these things yet - it is a wild ride but is a good one. Every new season I learn something so incredibly amazing about God that I am finally starting to get it. I have been a bit hesitant about my mother-in-law coming but I keep hearing Him whisper to me that if I will just love Him and trust Him, He has something prepared for me that I can't even imagine. I just have to love Him. He works out all the rest of the details. I can't wait to see what this next phase of life has in store for me. I know it won't always be easy, in fact many times it is far from it, but I know it will be good because God is good. I just encourage you today to be on the look out for the wonderful things He has in store for you. Things no eye has ever seen and no ear has ever heard. Don't get so caught up in the situation that you miss it. So often the thing that we think we can't bear today is easily forgotten tomorrow, but the rewards for obedience are eternal.


Lord help me to have your eyes in the situations you bring into my life. Thank you for your promises. I love you Lord and I trust your goodness.


I am a Christian

This was on a friend's blog today - I just love it! Thanks, Carla!!!!!!

When I say " I am a Christian" , I'm not shouting "I am saved". I'm whispering "I was lost", that is why I chose this way.

When I say "I am a Christian" , I don't speak of this with pride - I'm confessing that I stumble, and need someone to be my guide.

When I say "I am a Christian" , I'm not trying to be strong - I'm professing that I'm weak, and pray for strength to carry on.

When I say " I am a Christian" , I'm not bragging of sucess - I'm admitting I have failed. and cannot ever pay the debt.

When I say "I am a Christian" , I'm not claiming to be perfect-My flaws are all to visible, but God believes I'm worth it.

When I say "I am a Christian" , I still feel the sting of pain -I have my share of heartaches which is why I speak His name.

When I say "I am a Christian" , I do not wish to judge - I have no authority, I only know I'm loved.........

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Be Obedient!

For by Him all things were created: things in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or powers or rulers or authorities; all things were created by Him and for Him. He is before all things, and in Him all things hold together.

Colossians 1:16-17

Remind the people to be subject to rulers and authorities, to be obedient, to be ready to do whatever is good, to slander no one, to be peaceable and considerate, and to show true humility toward all men.

Titus 3:1-2

I urge, then, first of all, that requests, prayers, intercession and thanksgiving be made for everyone-for kings and all those in authority, that we may live peaceful and quiet lives in all godliness and holiness. This is good and pleases God our Savior who wants all men to be saved and come to the knowledge of truth.

1 Timothy 2:1-4

Submit yourselves for the Lord's sake to every authority instituted among men: whether to the king, as the supreme authority, or to governors, who are sent by him to punish those who do wrong and to commend those who do right. For it is God's will that by doing good you should silence the ignorant talk of foolish men. Live as free men, but do not use your freedom as a cover up for evil; live as servants of God. Show proper respect to everyone: Love the brotherhood of believers, fear god, honor the king.

1 Peter 13-17

I awoke today with a feeling of sadness. I am so thankful for the gentle reminders in God's word. So today I start to pray for president elect Obama! He has been placed in authority over me and instead slandering his name I need to honor him and pray for him. I also need to pray for God's mercy on this wonderful country that I have the privilege of living in. Have a blessed day!

Monday, November 3, 2008

Take those thoughts captive ladies!!!!!

The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds. We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.

2 Corinthians 10:4-5

I have been hearing from God a lot lately about this passage. I feel like He keeps asking me am I believing truth or am I believing a lie? If I am believing a lie that is thought I need to take captive. When I am having struggles I need to find out the truth(God's Word). That is why studying our Bible for our self and memorizing it is soooo important. When I start to have bad thoughts they seem to multiply if I don't nip it in the bud. Here is a perfect example: Our kids do something to upset us. We start to wear around the T.P.(terrible parent not toilet paper in case you were wondering if yes I did indeed finally lose my mind and I won't have the need to take any thoughts captive)anyway we are wearing the T.P. Instead of immediately at that point taking the thought captive and telling our self "therefore there is no condemnation in Christ Jesus" we start self-condemnation. Now after making our self feel bad for a while we want to make someone else suffer because we are grumpy and feeling sorry for our self and because the T.P. is too heavy for one to carry alone so we attack our husband. Now we have involved someone else. It is deeper. We could still start speaking the truth and taking our thoughts captive and tell our self all the truth about our husband and who he is as a Christian, as a father, and as a husband. But instead we suffer and we make him suffer. Then we decide to take it out on others. We start to have the "grass is greener" syndrome and we hide away for fear of what someone might think of us. The weight is heavy, our marriage is now in a shamble, and to top it all off we are lonely. Are you seeing the snow ball effect???? Can you see how important it is to know our true identity in Christ Jesus. Jesus used God's word to combat Satan (Matthew 4). We need to learn from His example and use His word to fight and win the battle. It will demolish strongholds. They are anything in our life that is placed before God. So what thoughts do you need to take captive today? Anything that is setting itself up against the knowledge of God. Stop believing the lie. Don't let satan have this. We are more than conquerors ladies. We can do this.

*Yes the previous scenario was real and not fictional. I am happy to say that wife and husband are once again living in harmony and wife is trying to get better and quicker at getting those thoughts under control:)


Lord thank you for your word which is Truth. With it we have awesome power to overcome all the schemes of the devil. That you loved us enough to give us your Son and provide us with your word amazes me everyday! I love you too Lord!