Thursday, February 12, 2009

Letting Go!

Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland.

Isaiah 43:18-19

Today there is a lump in my throat. The tears are just waiting to fall. I am letting go of so many things right now I feel like I can't catch my breath. I just hugged my son goodbye. He is going to skate with some friends. He is graduating this year. When I hug him my face is in his chest. He is two heads taller than his mama. I love that boy more then my next breath. Why didn't anyone tell us when we brought those bundles of joy home that we would need to hand them over at some point? We would lose all control. I guess I started letting go a long time ago but the reality of it all is hitting me in the face right now. He belongs to God. I hear God tell me on a fairly regular basis that I need to trust Him and love Him more then my man and my kids. I struggle. Somedays like today I cry. I am not ready. I also made another big decision yesterday. I actually have been praying about it for a while but yesterday was the day. I felt great afterwards but of course this morning doubt creeps in. Second guessing....God lead me to Isaiah today. To the verse above. I can't dwell on the past. Neither can you. He is doing a new thing. I love a "new thing". I think we can get caught up in the past and miss the new thing(I love the question He asks,"do you not perceive it?" It's like He is saying HELLO can you hear me???? Do you see what I am trying to do here?). I think the new thing might look different then what we are expecting and it may actually be a little difficult at first. He is faithful. When we are not feeling it we need to just believe it. I ain't feelin' it right now but today I just need to press past what I feel and look for the way in my desert. My stream in the wasteland. Just put your name in the blank. _________________I am making you a way in your desert. __________________ I am making you a stream in your desert. Ladies, He's got it covered. Trust in His word and keep looking for the new thing He wants to do for you. Don't be afraid to walk away from an old thing. He will take care of you. I walked away from something very dear to me yesterday. My son is walking a path on his own now. I will praise God for how it will all work out. I will cry a bit. He will wipe away my tears. Praise you Jesus! Hope your day is blessed. Look at the sunshine and rejoice today.

Prayer:

Lord I thank you for making a new way for me. Help us not to dwell on the past. I praise you ahead of time for the way you will work all things out for my good. Bless my son Lord. Protect him. Thanks for giving him to me. Thanks for the other opportunities you have brought into this sinners life. I am so undeserving. I love you Lord.

Amen

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