Saturday, February 28, 2009

Random thoughts......

This weekend:

Cayla is at winter camp. I miss her so much. I am very lonely without my bff.

Cleaned and decluttered all day. I am exhausted but happy with the results.

We have been painting all week. I almost don't recognize the place:)

Mentioned to Greg a few weeks ago while we were at Kmart that I was looking for an OPI nailpolish. I said the color was fondue something. Can you believe this morning he said "I'm fondue of you" and handed me the nail polish I was looking for. Yes, that is the name of the color. I am one lucky lady.

Speaking Friday at MOPS. Should be preparing instead of blogging......

Little Markie is sleeping over tonight. I hope the boys sleep.

Am feeling a little sentimental(not sure when I'm not). My baby will be 18 in a few weeks. Things are changing so quickly:(

Well, I need to be going. Hope you have a blessed weekend.


Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Esther

Some great stuff in Esther this morning thought I would share a few things....

~Satan has no authority to destroy us, so he settles for the next best thing: Threatening to destroy us.

~Our distrust of God tattles on us, telling our enemy exactly how to get us.

~Once Satan sees what we believe would be the end of us, he threatens and torments us with it.

~Our conditional trust not only makes us an open target for enemy torment; it also positions us as negotiators and beggars before God instead of secure children who trust their lives to their faithful Father.

~And finally, We determine to trust Him no matter what, even if our worst nightmare befalls us. We have no greater victory and can render Satan no harsher blow.

The above points from study this morning really challenged me on my trust and my fears. Through fears and distrust the enemy is threatening to destroy us but when we finally just CHOOSE to trust no matter what he loses all power. Hallelujah! This all falls in line with my post yesterday about our thoughts. We can win this ladies!!!!!

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Finding our purpose.....

I have been wanting to write this post for a long time. I wanted to be able to spend more time than usual on it and that hasn't happened so I felt like maybe I should share it just the way it is. I talk a lot about choices and taking our thoughts captive. It is my desire to see every woman live in the freedom that is hers for the taking but not only that I want each woman to find her God given purpose here on earth. Not just to survive but to live an abundant life. On my journey this year for truth God has taken me to this verse in 2 Corinthians over and over again:

The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds. We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.
2 Corinthians 10:4-5 (NIV)

I kept praying and asking Him exactly what this means and how does it play itself out in our every day lives??? I think the first step is understanding that the weapons we have to fight with are not of this world. They are so much greater than that. We need to know the power we possess and how to use it. We need to know what it looks like to actually use God's word. Our offensive weapon. Using it to take our thought life captive. Satan loves when he controls our thoughts. I feel like in my search God gave me some very real steps that I can take to overcome the things I struggle with. He spoke this acrostic using the word CAPTIVE over me. It has helped me tremendously. I hope it is some help to you.

C - Cease Activity - get alone and get quiet!
A - Apply God's word - you gotta know it to apply it so study it faithfully
P - Persevere past what your feeling and Praise God in the midst of it
T - Talk out loud - God's word is powerful especially when spoken out loud
I - Involve others - don't try to do this alone
V - Voice the victory - praise God for all your victories big and small
E - Evaluate for next time

When we feel under attack or just have a circumstance that we think will do us in we need to get alone, even if it just for a few minutes, so we can collect our thoughts before things get out of control.

Once we are alone we can look at the situation and apply God's word to it. Are you feeling fearful of something? Repeat to yourself "I have not been given a spirit of fear but of power, love and self discipline"(2 Timothy 1:7) or "perfect love drives out fear" (1 John 4:18) Or how about times when you feel like God is not hearing you...Psalms 145:18-19 tells us The Lord is near to all who call on Him....I could go on but I am sure you get the point but you can't call out His promises from His word if you don't know them so it is imperative that you faithfully study it.

Now to what I call the two "P's". They are Persevere and Praise. We need to persevere past what we are feeling. The feelings of victory will come but if they are not immediate you need to keep going. Also, praise God even in the midst of the trial.

When you are applying God's word don't be afraid to use it out loud. There is huge power in His word spoken out loud.

Involve others when you are struggling. The Bible is full of stories and encouragement of people who needed someone to come alongside of them. People who God sends to encourage them. You and I are no different. DON'T struggle through something alone.

And finally when the victory comes and it will come I promise you that don't forget to voice that back to God. Thank Him for His word, His power , and the strength He provided you and after you have voiced this to Him think about the situation. Is there anything you could do differently???? Evaluate for next time because there will be a next time. Life is full of difficulties. What can you do to be victorious even quicker next time until it gets to the place where this is your second nature. When Satan sees that he can't get you on this anymore he will give up. He loses. You win. Victory. Thoughts fully captive and obedient to our Lord Jesus Christ. Commit this week to give this a try. One step at a time. No condemnation if you struggle just keep going. Life will keep going don't let it go on without you. You can do it. We can be victorious here on earth until the ultimate victory comes and we spend eternity in the place He is preparing for us. It is often these trials and struggles that become our defining moments. Often the pain we feel will be the thing that points us to our ultimate purpose here on earth. We do have a purpose beyond survival. Look for it today. He is waiting to reveal it to you. Have a great week in the Lord!

Prayer~

Lord, thank you for your Word. Help us to apply it in EVERY situation. It is as relevant today as it was yesterday. Our offensive weapon. Thank you for this gift.

Amen

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Come get your "pot" of spaghetti......

These are some familiar words to me. My 90 year old grandma cooks for me on a regular basis. She has not been herself lately. She has been feeling sick. Barely leaving her apartment(yes her own apartment up two flights of stairs). She spent some time in the hospital recently. I have been very worried but yesterday out of nowhere I get the call. Come pick up your pot of spaghetti. She loves to cook and when she does it is for an army. You would think I had 15 kids not 7 when she cooks for me. Last year at age 89 she cooked constantly for me after I had my gallbladder out. After I left yesterday I picked up the phone and called my bff and wanted to cry. I said what if this is the last time I pick up food at her house. What if I soon lose her and I am not ready. Then today would you believe the phone rings and she has made more spaghetti. I didn't know if I should laugh or cry. She didn't like the thin spaghetti she made yesterday so today she made more with the "good stuff". I love her. She is an incredible woman. She cares for her disabled son and worries more for her grandkids and great grandkids than you can imagine. She is the last one left out of her siblings. She was a twin. At 9 months her and her brother got sick. He died. She lived. Spunky from the beginning. I am a tenacious woman(I can hear Greg rolling with laughter at that admission) but I don't know if I have the tenacity of my grandma. She is something else. I am so blessed to have her. So today I enjoyed spaghetti for lunch again and froze a bunch for later. Here's to you grandma - You are the best!

My "Sassy" Grandma


My TWO "pots" of Spaghetti




Monday, February 16, 2009

Memory Challenge #4

Yesterday started verse no. 4 in my memory challenge. I thought a lot about that verse in Isaiah that God brought to me last week. I struggle with dwelling on the past so I thought that might be a good one to commit to memory. So here it is again:

Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. Se, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a new way in the desert and streams in the wasteland.

Isaiah 43:18-19

Beth Moore gave us an acrostic for our memorization:

R - Read It
E - Examine It
N - Need It
E - Echo It
W - Wield It

This is definitely on I need. I need to be able to wield it when I am under attack. His word strengthens us. Satan loves to bring up things in the past, good or bad, that he can hold over our heads. Let's not allow it. Let's look for the "new thing" God is doing and let go of the past. Hope you have a blessed day shining the light of our precious Saviour.

Thursday, February 12, 2009

Letting Go!

Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland.

Isaiah 43:18-19

Today there is a lump in my throat. The tears are just waiting to fall. I am letting go of so many things right now I feel like I can't catch my breath. I just hugged my son goodbye. He is going to skate with some friends. He is graduating this year. When I hug him my face is in his chest. He is two heads taller than his mama. I love that boy more then my next breath. Why didn't anyone tell us when we brought those bundles of joy home that we would need to hand them over at some point? We would lose all control. I guess I started letting go a long time ago but the reality of it all is hitting me in the face right now. He belongs to God. I hear God tell me on a fairly regular basis that I need to trust Him and love Him more then my man and my kids. I struggle. Somedays like today I cry. I am not ready. I also made another big decision yesterday. I actually have been praying about it for a while but yesterday was the day. I felt great afterwards but of course this morning doubt creeps in. Second guessing....God lead me to Isaiah today. To the verse above. I can't dwell on the past. Neither can you. He is doing a new thing. I love a "new thing". I think we can get caught up in the past and miss the new thing(I love the question He asks,"do you not perceive it?" It's like He is saying HELLO can you hear me???? Do you see what I am trying to do here?). I think the new thing might look different then what we are expecting and it may actually be a little difficult at first. He is faithful. When we are not feeling it we need to just believe it. I ain't feelin' it right now but today I just need to press past what I feel and look for the way in my desert. My stream in the wasteland. Just put your name in the blank. _________________I am making you a way in your desert. __________________ I am making you a stream in your desert. Ladies, He's got it covered. Trust in His word and keep looking for the new thing He wants to do for you. Don't be afraid to walk away from an old thing. He will take care of you. I walked away from something very dear to me yesterday. My son is walking a path on his own now. I will praise God for how it will all work out. I will cry a bit. He will wipe away my tears. Praise you Jesus! Hope your day is blessed. Look at the sunshine and rejoice today.

Prayer:

Lord I thank you for making a new way for me. Help us not to dwell on the past. I praise you ahead of time for the way you will work all things out for my good. Bless my son Lord. Protect him. Thanks for giving him to me. Thanks for the other opportunities you have brought into this sinners life. I am so undeserving. I love you Lord.

Amen

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

The B I B L E

Couldn't resist sharing this. I had to miss Bible study today because Coco is sick and I was having a crappy attitude about it. This sure changed that. Who can stay grumpy when you see something so sweet??? Have a great day!
*pause my playlist below before you play the video.

The B I B L E from Denise Grove on Vimeo.

Monday, February 9, 2009

Back Home - Back to Reality

Well, I am home now. We got in last night. It is actually kinda cool how everyone missed me. The kids were looking out the window. Even the dogs could barely wait for me to get in the door. I got the most precious hugs and kisses a mom could ever wish for. The weekend was a blast. There is nothing like girlfriends and awesome husbands who let us go! I bet your wondering about that mystery dinner....It was hilarious. You should see people eat French Onion Soup without a utensil. We had a tomato/mozzarella thing(good description huh?)soup, salad, rolls, green beans, chicken(pecan/lime crusted or something like that - I'm not very cultured!) gourmet potatoes, sherbet, water, a grape punch drink, mints, and my favorite dessert a minty/chocolaty parfait. It was an unbelievable meal. I also learned a little tip from Lisa. If you want your food to digest, lay on your right side. I laid on my left because of some confusion I have struggled with since I was a small child but as soon as Lisa straightened me out it does help;) This morning after I took Chris to the dentist we started school. I was feeling a bit tired and distracted. Coco said he didn't feel good. The boy is ALWAYS trying to get out of school so I didn't take him too seriously until he threw up all over the living room carpet. Guess he is really sick though he is acting fine now. His first question was does he need to finish school now. No my dear Coco you can have the rest of the day off but please make it to the toilet. Well, my lunch break is up. I better get things done here. Check out the pictures below for a good laugh. Hope you have a blessed day!


Laughter!

Lisa getting creative - you can use part of your cup as a untensil!

Steph and I using our fingers:)

Poor Dawn - Not a very good start.

Soup with no spoon = messy fingers and drippy chin!

Beautiful Table

Make sure when laying on your right side to digest your food you get to the couch first or you end up facing the couch:)



Saturday, February 7, 2009

Mystery Dinner and more!

The Mystery Menu


Last Night's Dinner


All Our Stuff!!!!!

Cracker Barrel

The "Infamous Bill"

Well, I made it. I am at girl's weekend. It took us hours to get here. Just to give you a heads up - you might want to check your bill if you go to Cracker Barrel and buy the breakfast sandwhich that is supposed to include your hash brown stuff for $3.79. Four of us ordered the same thing and each of our bills were different and way more than it should be. We flustered poor Pamela our waitress. It was hilarious. I did tell her it wasn't her fault and that she did a great job and I was sorry we were the most difficult people in her 11 years of working there.....then on to Starbucks. Yep, you guessed it - Grande 1/2 caff non-fat peppermint mocha latte and yes add the whip. Sounds like an oxymoron - non-fat ,add the whipcream. It was good. Then on to the grocery store and finally here. We have laughed, cried, and eaten way more then anyone should. It is awesome. It is a blast. I am loving it. Well, tonight is our "theme dinner". My sister-in-law and Kim and Wendy are so creative. We are doing a mystery dinner. We had a list of 16 things like Andes Mountain and The Fountain of Youth. We had to put the things in the order we want to eat them. This includes utensils, dessert, drink, main course, etc..... If you didn't guess right you might get dessert first without a utensil. It will be so much fun. Can't wait to see how I did...Who knows maybe I will be eating my Andes Mountain with my fingers. I'll let you know. I'll write more later. Have a blessed night!

Thursday, February 5, 2009

Sitting in Starbucks....

Just sitting reflecting on the week. I have so much on my mind. I am not ready to leave tomorrow, but what else is new I always pack last minute. Things are very quiet here. Gives you a lot of time to think things through. Thought I would spend some time in praise. It is way too easy to get caught up in all the worrisome stuff. We as usual have a lot going on. I have some decisions weighing on me and some things I need to be preparing for(maybe I should be doing that instead of rambling). Anyway, This week I am thankful for:

~My health
~My kids
~My Man
~The bathroom carnival
~Heat
~A house full of love
~Friends
~All the grace I've been given
~God's power and Supremacy
~Sticky hands giving me hugs
~The smell of my children

The list could go on but it is getting late. I just wanted to remind you when life feels overwhelming turn it around. When you praise Him it is hard to be sad, bitter, scared, or angry. Have blessed night. When you hear from me again I will be in the mountains.....yeah!

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Do things like this happen to anyone else????




I came home tonight from dinner with my grandma and my mom. As I entered the upstairs bathroom this is what I found. Now everyone is at AWANA right now. I am sure there is a logical explanation. It looks to me like it was carnival. Yes, in the bathroom. Was that because the contestant was on the toilet and that would make it easier - to just move it into the bathroom? Who knows. Notice the penny on top of the cup mountain. Was it a penny toss? Or did you need to knock the cups down? The paper on the floor had numbers on it. Possibly to keep score. If you want my guess, I will probably never really know. Stuff like this makes me so happy to be a mama!


It's tough being a woman in a world where beauty is a treatment....

That was the "tough being a woman" statement this week in my Bible study of Esther. And I of all people can tell you that it rings ever so true. I probably have more insecurities than most. This is where believing truth over the lie comes in once again. Especially as I get older. This summer I had the blessed opportunity to do a missions project in Pittsburgh PA with a group of middle schoolers. I will never forget when one of the boys looked at me and as seriously as a middle school boy can be said, "Mrs. Grove how did you get that scar in the middle of your forehead?" It is not a scar mind you. IT IS A WRINKLE! I laughed. I cried. I wanted Botox.

In a world where we are constantly surrounded by what looks like perfection. More beautiful women than one can imagine just on the magazine covers in line at the grocery store. No wonder we are insecure. It is everywhere we go. Everywhere we look. T.V. Magazines. Billboards. The grocery store for pity sakes. Not like we can avoid that place. Though I would love to try. Do you think my family would understand?

Today in my homework I had to answer a few questions regarding all this "beauty stuff". One thing she asked us to do was to make a list of everything we own that would fall into the categories of cosmetics, beauty treatments, precious ointments, soaps for bathing. This is how the Hebrew term for "beauty treatments" in Esther 2:3is defined. Sorry Beth, this lipstick wearin' momma does not have enough paper in the house for a list that would be ever so embarrassingly long. She also asked, "What might be a reasonable way to handle the pressure for those of us who are neither likely to nor under spiritual conviction to throw away all our cosmetics?" Now that I can answer. I am starting to figure that out. It is knowing where our worth comes from. I can still wear make-up as long as make-up doesn't control me. I am the first to admit I am thankful for my concealer(Thank you Jesus). But God must come first in my life.

Anyway, as I get older and the battle is becoming almost too much for me to fight anymore I(we) need to keep a few scriptures in mind. The voice of Truth. Beth Moore gave us a few yesterday and I have a few of my own that I will leave you with.

The king is enthralled by your beauty; honor him, for he is your Lord.

Psalm 45:11

But the Lord said to Samuel, "Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The LORD does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart.

1 Samuel 16:7

May the favor of the Lord our God rest upon us; establish the work of our hands for us-yes, establish the work of our hands.

Psalm 90:17

I am my beloved's, and his desire is toward me.

Song of Solomon 7:10 (KJV)

You see beauty treatments or not we belong to the Lord. He searches our heart. We should desire His favor be on us. He is already enthralled with our beauty. Proverbs 31 doesn't say "She rises early and spends hours in her bathroom trying to look younger than she really is". He made us all beautiful. May our heart "outdo" our "hairdo" today. Let's thrive in His beauty today! Be blessed.

Prayer:

Lord, forgive us when we mess up and get our priorities wrong. Help in this battle for beauty. Keep gently reminding us that yoy already think we are beautiful but you want our heart. You want the inside to outdo our hairdo. We love you Lord.

Amen


Monday, February 2, 2009

This week

Monday. The start of another week. I actually sorta like Mondays. It feels like a "new beginning". I am starting in on verse no. 3 for the year. I told you I am doing the Beth Moore scripture challenge. Two verses a month. Very easy to do actually. So, here is my verse for Feb. 1st:

Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is - his good, pleasing, and perfect will.

Romans 12:2

I have always loved this verse but never took the time to commit it to memory. I always think of myself as a Transformer. You remember the cartoon Transformers right? I think of God's word changing me into a powerful woman able to leap a building in a single bound. Ok I know that was another cartoon but anyway I love how His word changes us. I love change. So this is the verse I will commit to memory between now and Feb. 15th. I am also going back and making sure I can still say the other ones I learned. It is exciting. As for the rest of the week:

Monday - Women's Ministry meeting, school, and take vegetable soup to my grandma. I made a huge pot last night. I almost posted pictures I was so proud of myself. Anyone who knows me knows I hate to cook.

Tuesday - Bible study. Yeah!!!! Pray for no snow. Then home to do school and babysit my two nephews.

Wednesday - School and Awana for my kids. I always spend Wednesday night with my mom and grandma. I love this time with them.

Thursday - School and grocery shop for girl's weekend in the mountains. Cayla also has Bible quizzing. Who knows maybe I will sit at Starbucks again:)

Friday - Leave at 8am for the mountains with a bunch of girlfriends. (one of my best girlfriends Carla has a lot going on and she is trying to back out - She better come!!!!!) I love this weekend. It is so much fun and relaxing. We do nothing but eat, sleep, and talk. How awesome is that???? I will be there until late Sunday night. Bless my husbands heart he has to teach co-op and be mom and dad for the whole weekend.

Well, that is my week in a nut shell. How about you? Hope no matter how eventful or uneventful your week is you make time to spend with God. It is in that alone time that real transformation happens. Not just on Sundays, a few hours in church, but the time we spend with Him each day. Have a blessed week!