Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Because of who He is.....

Thank you to everyone who prayed for me today. It went exceptionally well. I felt God's leading and the power of the Holy Spirit the whole time we were there. I do crack myself up though because for some reason I had in mind that this was a Christian Women's lunch. I am not a detail person and for good reason. If I would get too many details about something I get very nervous. Anyway, this was the Christian Medical Society lunch. So needless to say there were more than just ladies. There were men, women, young and old. Mostly students which I thought was awesome. I met the neatest couple. She is a pediatrician and He is in his 3rd year of medical school. They head up this whole group. How awesome to see a young couple(who by the way just had their first baby) be so involved. Well with that all said I couldn't do anything I did today on my own. It would have failed miserably. I read this poem the other day. The author is unknown but it says it all, so I will leave you with this today. Be blessed. Shine in His beauty today.(this is a little long but worth it)

He is the First and Last,
The Beginning and the End!
He is the keeper of Creation and the Creator of all!
He is the Architect of the universe and the Manager of all times.
He always was,
He always is, and He always will be...
Unmoved, Unchanged, Undefeated, and never Undone!

He was bruised and brought healing!
He was pierced and eased pain!
He was persecuted and brought freedom!
He was dead and brought life!
He is risen and brings power!
He reigns and brings Peace!

The world can't understand him,
The armies can't defeat Him,
The schools can't explain Him,
and The leaders can't ignore Him.

Herod couldn't kill Him,
The Pharisees couldn't confuse Him,
and The people couldn't hold Him!

Nero couldn't crush Him,
Hitler couldn't silence Him,
The New Age can't replace Him,
and Oprah can't explain Him away!
He is light, love, longevity, and Lord.
He is goodness, Kindness, Gentleness, and God.
He is Holy, Righteous, mighty, powerful, and pure.

His ways are right,
His word is eternal,
His will is unchanging,
and His mind is on me.

He is my Savior,
He is my guide, and
He is my peace!
He is my Joy,
He is my comfort,
He is my Lord, and
He rules my life!

I serve Him because
His bond is love,
His burden is light,
and His goal for me is abundant life.

I follow Him because
He is the wisdom of the wise,
the power of the powerful,
the ancient of days,
the ruler of rulers,
the leader of leaders,
the overseer of the overcomers,
and is to come.
And if that seems impressive to you,
try this on for size.

His goal is a relationship with ME!
He will never leave me,
never forsake me,
never mislead me,
never forget me,
never overlook me,
and never cancel my appointment in His
appointment book!

When I fall, He lifts me up!
When I! fail, He forgives!
When I am weak, He is strong!
When I am lost, He is the way!

When I am afraid, He is my courage!
When I stumble, He steadies me!
When I am hurt, He heals me!
When I am broken, He mends me!
When I am blind, He leads me!
When I am hungry, He feeds me!

When I face trials, He is with me!
When I face persecution, He shields me!
When I face problems, He comforts me!
When I face loss, He provides for me!
When I face Death, He carries me Home!

He is everything for everybody everywhere, every time, and every way.
He is God, He is faithful.
I am His, and He is mine!
My Father in heaven can whip the father of this world.
So, if you're wondering why I feel so secure, understand this...

He said it and that settles it.
God is in control,
I am on His side,
and that means all is well with my soul.
Everyday is a blessing for GOD Is!

Monday, March 30, 2009

I resolve to know nothing......except Jesus

When I came to you, brothers, I did not come with eloquence or superior wisdom as I proclaimed to you the testimony about God. For I resolved to know nothing while I was with you except Jesus Christ and him crucified. I came to you in weakness and fear, and with much trembling. My message and my preaching were not with wise and persuasive words but with a demonstration of the Spirits power, so that your faith might not rest on men’s wisdom, but on God’s power.

1 Corinthians 2:1-5

I read this verse recently in my Bible study and I thought it spoke volumes. I love to talk. I love to share. That is one of the reasons I started this blog but I do not want anyone to think for one second that I have it all together. We are talking about someone who gets excited if she gets to church and realizes her shoes, bag and Bible match(this actually happened last Sunday – black leather with tan stitching – I was so excited). I am a pretty simple girl (minded anyway I know I am actually very complicated in other areas). I just have a love for God and His word. It has sustained me through some real tough times. It is life and hope.

We were asked in our study last week to look at our Bible and think about the things we have been through with that Bible. I bought my Bible after my first ladies Bible study. I fell in love with His Word through that study. I have also been through some of the hardest times in my life with that very same Bible. Whenever God gives me an opportunity to share I do come in fear and trembling. Please don’t ever let your faith rest on my wisdom (that would be your downfall for sure unless you were looking for how to get your shoes and Bible to match).

I want you to pray for me today if you think of it. I am speaking at Hershey Medical Center on behalf of SVPS tomorrow. As excited as I am, I am also scared half to death. I will be speaking to a Christian Women’s luncheon for I guess the prolife employees. I have been warned that the pro-choice ladies will probably come also. Though I feel a bit intimidated I know that no one can argue with truth. I will be speaking on God’s handprints on my life. His truth is so evident in my life. Pray it is demonstration of the Spirit’s power and that my flesh is silent. I thank you all for the opportunity to share with you. May your faith rest on God’s power today.

Prayer~

Lord I thank you and praise you for your Word and the wisdom you give us. I praise for the opportunity to share what your power has done in my life. Thank you that you use the weak and that when we are weak then we are strong. We love you Lord Jesus and we bless your name.

Amen


Saturday, March 28, 2009

She Speaks Conference

I know this is a long shot. I missed the deadline. A scholarship to the She Speaks conference with Proverbs 31 Ministries and I am "a day late and a dollar short" as my mom used to say(literally you know - I have no money and I am a day late to enter:). I have been looking at this conference for a few years now. I was always too afraid to go somewhere like this alone. God has been working with me on that. Now I feel ready to go. My confidence has grown. I have been doing more and more writing and speaking but could use as much help as I can get. This would be an awesome opportunity. If the whole scholarship thing doesn't pan out I will just keep praying. Though finances are a huge obstacle right now especially after our trip(which by the way was worth every penny considering I haven't been away like that with Greg in 18 years of marriage so I don't feel bad at all if I miss this conference because of that)I know God can do anything. I have watched Him do miracles. If I am supposed to be there it will happen. Anyway I thought I would give this a try anyway. Just listen to what this confernece has to offer:

For Speakers:

Whether you are ready to take the main stage and start speaking at conferences and retreats or whether you want to learn how to more effectively teach a ladies’ Bible Study- this track is for you. After attending this conference you will be equipped to:

* Know how to develop a message from start to finish

* Understand what keeps an audience engaged and how to make your message memorable

* Deliver your message in such a way that not only inspires your audience but motivates them to make life changes

* Increase your number of booked speaking engagements by using proven marketing strategies.

For Writers:

You have had a passion for writing and have even had people encourage you to write a book, but have never known how to get started on the pathway to publication. You will have the chance to attend sessions taught by some of the top Christian publishers and make appointments to pitch your book proposal.

Or maybe you are a blogger and just want to learn how to more effectively connect with your readers and increase the impact of your blog. What better way than to sit in sessions taught by three of the most widely read blog authors. Whatever the case may be, after attending this conference you will:

* Discover your unique writing voice and the mechanics of effective writing

* Understand what publishers are looking for and how to write proposals that get their attention

* Better understand how to build your writing portfolio by getting published in magazines

* Know how to write a book that will impact your reader from start to finish

Sounds exciting doesn't it???? Who knows maybe I will be there!

Pulled over AGAIN......

Let me start this post by saying I am normally a law abiding citizen. So much so that sometimes my kids (especially Chris) make fun of me. Can you believe that yesterday I got pulled over again???? This time I was going 82 in a 65. This time I held back the tears although they did well up and the officer assured me it was ok. This time I got a ticket and 4 wonderful points on my record. The second time in a month. I haven't been pulled over in over 15 years and now twice in one month. I think (actually I know) there is a lesson God is trying to get me to learn through this. Both times I was upset about something with my kids and both times I was on the phone(a big no no) and didn't even realize how fast I was going. Sometimes the emotions of everything just overtake us and God needs to get our attention somehow. I am just glad He has used me getting pulled over and not me getting into an accident. I have learned to be fairly controlled in my emotions except when it comes to my kids. I am definetely a mother bear and you had better not mess with my cubs. Lately Satan has been messing with them. I am angry(thus the fast driving). I know God wants me to learn to trust and to be self-controlled when it comes to them. My kids have always been such a touchy subject for me. I have always been willing to give Him everything except hand them over. I want to be in control when it comes to them. I was reading a blog the other day and read a word that was there just for me. It was my rhema. Did you know "word" is translated two ways in the Bible? Logos which is God's word - the whole Bible and Rhema which is a personal word He speaks to us through the Bible. You know when a passage just leaps off the page to you. When it comes at just the right time and you can almost hear an audible voice speaking right into your heart and soul. That is Rhema. I got mine the other day with this passage:

“For I will pour water on the thirsty land,
and streams on the dry ground;
I will pour out my Spirit on your offspring,
and my blessing on your descendants.
They will spring up like grass in a meadow,
like poplar trees by flowing streams.
One will say, ‘I belong to the Lord’;
another will call himself by the name of Jacob;
still another will write on his hand,
‘The Lord’s,’ and will take the name Israel.”
—Isaiah 44:3–5

I just need to sit and wait for Him to pour out His spirit on my offspring. I have to give it over once and for all. No more driving fast and feeling like I can't function because of circumstance. This is a battle I have been fighting for a long time. Please pray for me. I need some real wisdom right now on how to proceed with a certain situation and I need to be self-controlled no matter what. I can't afford to lose my license or to pay any more fines:) Hope you have a blessed weekend!

Friday, March 27, 2009

Fashion Friday

Ok I know I really don't have a lot to say on this subject considering my wardrobe consists of so much Under Armour I keep waiting for them to call me to be the spokeswoman (then I remember I am not 18 anymore with rock hard abs). Anyway, I got the cutest shoes last night at K-mart. They were only $14.99 and I think they will be adorable with jeans or shorts. I bought Cayla a pair in yellow. Great price. Cute shoe. Just thought I would share! What is Pashmina anyway???????

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Jamaica


Couldn't resist posting a picture. It was amazing.

Sitting at Starbucks....

They are three of my favorite words. Sitting at Starbucks. Not sure if it somehow makes me feel a bit refined or maybe even hip(never mind that just hours ago the most intellectual thought I was having was just how many dishes can our dishwasher really hold or that the truth is I just love sitting and listening to other people's conversation - a problem my husband never really realized until last week on vacation). I thought maybe sitting here alone would give me some inspiration to share something really great with you. Sorry. All the deeper my thoughts are going is if there are one or two squirts of syrup in my drink and because I already blew the diet on vacation can I justify ordering a grande instead of a tall???? I know, I know really earth shattering but the cool thing is as I sit here thinking of not much of anything God still cares. He is so interested in my thoughts. He already knows them. He cares about the day in and day out mundane stuff that we think doesn't matter. It matters to Him. He wants to know my heart on my dishwasher and my diet. I feel Him here with me. I know Jesus would love just sitting at Starbucks taking in all the people and conversations. I think we feel like we should only take the big stuff to Him but it is so cool to know He is with us during the little stuff. So often I am caught up in crisis situations where I am begging Him for some answer to prayer that I forget to just sit and enjoy Him during my everyday stuff. So here's to enjoying just being here tonight. Hope your evening is going well. Remember whether you are crying out in need of an answer or just trying to figure out how your little one got that chewed up piece of gum stuck on the ceiling take a moment to just sit and reflect on how much God cares for you. Have a blessed night!

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Struggling....

Call it writers block. Call it jet lag. I guess you could call it whatever you want, but I am struggling. I just came back from Jamaica where everything is no worries mon to lots of worries. Where everything is no problem mon, to lots of problems. Chris turned 18 while I was gone and I now have an adult son. I am so sad. He is turning into an awesome young man but I wanted to stay little just a while longer. I am very tired and can not think of a blog worthy thing to write about. My attitude kinda stinks - o.k. it really stinks. Hopefully tomorrow I will be able to write something a little more interesting, then again maybe not:) Since I am not feeling any inspiration I will leave you with some thoughts from my Esther study. Thank God for Bible study!

It's tough being a woman....but it's trust that turns it all around.

We can not fret our way to victory. God is waiting for our trust - we won't fret our way to the finish line.

He seeks us out to reverse our destiny!

We are only responsible for what we are asked to do not the how. God will take care of that.

Well, have a blessed day.

Monday, March 16, 2009

Wondering what I do all day.....

I often have days when I ask myself what I did all day. I feel like I am running my race on a treadmill getting nowhere. Today was one of those days. Although I did spend a good 20 minutes getting Catey out of her room. She locked herself in when the boys were bothering her. The lock got stuck. She cried. I wanted to. I took the door knob apart only to discover in these old doors the knob really has nothing to do with the lock. I searched frantically for a skeleton key and sure enough we finally got it open. Lesson learned I hope. How often do we barricade ourselves against things in life instead of just inviting God in and how often do we end up with a broken lock that only God holds the key to? The thing that she thought would protect her from her brothers ended up scaring her half to death. Oh how familiar that is in my life. On a brighter note even though I am not sure what else I accomplished today I did start my second memory verse for the month. I chose:

But He said to me, "my grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

2 Corinthians 12:9-10

Hoping His power rests on you today. Have a great one!

Friday, March 13, 2009

Fashion Friday

I thought I would link to Big Mama's fashion Friday so you could read my last post and know what wrinkle cream NOT to buy. On a more positive note if you can't get rid of your wrinkles you can buy some cute clothes to distract from them. I did find some cute stuff this week to wear in Jamaica next week.

I really like these jeans with these red shoes. I will probably wear a white shirt with it.

Also got some cute things at Old Navy. I got this dress to wear over my suit or out to dinner. I also got this tank and this tank to wear with this sweater.

They also have a bunch of adorable flip flops. So did Kohls and both places had them on sale.

Well, that is my extent of fashion help this week. Have a great Friday!

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Out of the mouths of babes.....

Ok, I admit it. I bought the new "deep wrinkle" cream from Garnier. I have been ever so slightly self conscious of my deep wrinkle ever since I was asked how I got the scar on my forehead. I was watching t.v. with Catey(8 years old) when a commercial came on for my new cream. The beautiful woman advertising the cream didn't look a day over 20 so I figure this stuff must be great. I tell Catey that I am using the same cream. She looks at me. She looks at the t.v. She looks at me again. She looks back at the t.v. and then she shakes her head and rolls her eyes. Can you believe it???? I questioned what that was all about and she said "mom, it ain't working...." Then it occurred to me that maybe the woman advertising it is only 20 and maybe I better come up with a very cool story on how I got my "scar".... Any ideas?????

Saturday, March 7, 2009

What a long day....

Today has got to rank up there as one of the longest days. Now after I said that I remember some crisis moments which I am sure would take the cake for long days but today was long just the same and it ain't over yet. Greg and I got up at 5 am because I needed to clean the insurance office. I am a little (ok alot!) fearful of being up there alone especially in the dark. After talking at MOPS yesterday about overcoming fears I feel a bit foolish but anyway I am scared - ok there I said it! I made my dear husband go with me which by the way has double benefits because not only did I not have to be afraid but he helped clean:) We were home by 8:30 and then I cleaned our own house. Went for a walk with Carla. Got some disturbing news(not from Carla of course). Ate lunch. Showered. Took Cayla shopping. Dropped her off in Leola to see a play. Got pulled over on the way home and sobbed hysterically to some state cop because I was upset about my disturbing news from earlier (when I first typed this I spelled it wrong, it came up historically - how appropriate considering sobbing is how I would act historically to getting bad news). Got home. Ate dinner. Put away laundry. Bathed kids. Prepared for Sunday school tomorrow and here I sit waiting for Cayla to call so I can get in the car and go pick her up (avoiding any state troopers of course and did I mention we are LOSING an hour sleep tonight?). All this to say as I was preparing for my class tomorrow this is one of the verses I came upon and am teaching on:

Your attitude should be the same as Christ Jesus: Who, being in very nature God, did not consider equality with God something to be grasped, but made himself nothing, taking the very nature of a servant, being made in human likeness.

Philippians 2:5-7

Allrighty then - get off my self-absorbed soap box and be thankful. Things could be worse. Glad to be His servant today. Hope to do better tomorrow on the attitude part. Have a blessed night.


Friday, March 6, 2009

It's Friday!!!!!!!!!

Well, it's finally Friday. It has been a good one. I had the opportunity to send my husband off to co-op with my kids and I went MOPS. I met the most wonderful ladies there. It is a really neat group of women. I hope that my message somehow touched them. I had a blast sharing. I always wake up the morning that I am supposed to do something like that and I think what in the world am I doing, I am not qualified for this and then I here Him say no, you are not qualified but I am and I am with you. God is so awesome that way. He is with us. We are never alone.

After MOPS I met Greg down at co-op because he needed to get to work. Bless his heart, teaching those kids PA history. I had cleaning team so I had to clean up a bit. I always ask to do trash. Believe it or not I like to do that part. The kids and I walk around together changing all the trash and I get done rather quickly. We have a busy weekend as usual planned. I am cleaning the office tomorrow and Catey has AWANA games practice. Church cleaning is tonight and Cayla is off to a b-day party. I do just love that girl. She is amazing. I read her "about me" on her myspace today and I cried. I wish I had her strength and her values/beliefs when I was 14. Here it is:

About me:
Things I like : Jesus, Youth Group, Hanging with my Friends, Shopping, Movies, Walks, Beach, Mountains, Sports, Texting, The Colts, Taking pictures, I have a lot of friends but only a few that I trust I try to follow God and strive my best to be more like him but nobody’s perfect I do fall into temptation but when I do I just get back up and learn from my mistakes and its good to know that he’s always there willing to take me back no matter how hard I fall .I love listening to music. I like to read sometimes my favorite author is definitely C.S. Lewis.God is amazing and has been very good to me. I am very open about my faith or at least I try to be I will fight for what I believe in and stick to it.

Now that just makes this momma proud!!!!! Not to mention her love for shopping and C.S. Lewis. A woman after my own heart. She is my girl!

I also have been wanting to blog about a great book. It is called Broken Into Beautiful by Gwen Smith. Her transparency and honesty in this book is a breath of fresh air. In a world where many women walk hiding behind their "fake" smile it was great to read a story from someone willing to take off the mask. It is an inviting testimony of God's healing in her life. Gwen shows us what can happen we allow God to heal our broken places.

And lastly I thought I would leave you with a funny story. I had my darling boy Chris and then came 4 girls. Then I had Coco and Abijah. With having two boys so close together it is definitely an adventure. Today each of them brought a friend home from co-op. They were all talking and all of the sudden they started talking about "fart land" and also a place where there is only "poop and pee". One of them even went on to say "you didn't invent fart land my brother did". I didn't know if I should laugh, cry, or call someone for an intervention. I guess boys will just be boys and when you get a few of them together you just never know what they might say:) I wasn't used to such talk having all those girls. And I guess Chris didn't have such a "potty mouth". Well, after we got home they played a lot in mud and with weapons doing all the things boys do best......

Well, I need to get going. I am hoping to squeeze in a walk on this beautiful day.

Have a wonderful weekend as you seek Him in all you do!


Wednesday, March 4, 2009

The Biggest Loser

Watched The Biggest Loser last night. It is my favorite show. It is probably one of the only shows I watch on a regular basis. This is not to make you think I think too highly of myself. I spend plenty of time on "time wasters" like the Internet and reading and writing blogs:) But anyway I think I like the show so much because of the huge transformation people make.

I am all about transformation. Like the one I got today when I got my hair colored(that verse about gray hair being a crown -not sure if I get that but I know my hair had a transformation moment today and I am happier for it!) I love to see a big change.

Now I'm not talking about change like your husband decides he has changed his mind and doesn't love you anymore or your child changes his/her values or beliefs and exchanges them for crappy ones. NOOOOO I do not like that kind of change. I like positive change. I guess that is why I am the biggest lover of God's word. Ain't nothing going to transform you more than that girlfriend!

Well, last night Sugar Rae Leonard(don't even know if I spelled that right) was on. He told them that this transformation was not just physical but mental and psychological. It was a mental state. Now I won't pretend I know anything about the guy because I don't but he used an acrostic(and you know I am all about a good acrostic!) and he said some powerful things so I like him already. I don't think he will replace Tony Dungy as my all time favorite sports person but I became fond of him just the same. This was his acrostic:

P - Prepare
O - Overcome
W - With
E - Every
R - Round

How cool is that. We as christians are called to the same thing. We are in a boxing ring fighting the battle of our life. We need to be prepared with God's word. We will overcome. With every round the devil knocks us around he can NOT knock us out! The victory is ours. The ultimate transformation will be when we meet our Saviour in Heavenlies. I don't know about you but I can't wait. Keep up the fight and be prepared for anything that comes your way! Who knows maybe I will get to host The Biggest Loser.... of Strongholds if a show like that is ever produced:) Lord knows I know all about it! Have a blessed day. Shine in His beauty.

Monday, March 2, 2009

Verse #5

Well ladies I am on verse number five in the memory challenge for the year. I will be memorizing Hebrews 10:35-36 over the next two weeks.

So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded, you need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what He has promised.

I just love that. Don't throw away your confidence. How often do we let lies creep in and we start to doubt ourself and the confidence that God has given us in thrown out without even batting a mascara covered eyelash? If we just persevere we will receive what He has promised. I don't know about you but that is a big confidence booster. We need to concentrate on things unseen instead of the things we see. We will need to be brave and have the courage to keep the confidence. Persevering and knowing that when we do the will of God He is there and is longing to richly bless us. It will be in those times of testing that our faith along with our confidence grows. So don't throw it away today. Look for Him in all your circumstances. Don't give up. Have a blessed day!