Saturday, October 31, 2009

Verse and other random things...

It is a beautiful fall morning as I sit at my dining room table and write this. I am supposed to be working on something and somehow I always end up her in the blog world totally distracted. It is wonderfully quiet as I suppose Trunk or Treat must have worn my little ones out because they have yet to make a peep. Greg is out of town hunting and I miss him so much I can barely stand it. We started out our married life together with one of the most volatile relationships and 18 years later he is my dearest friend. That is how God works when we allow Him to. I don't always, in fact sometimes I dig my heels in and refuse to move but when I finally go where He wants he turns volatile into beautiful.

I realized I never shared my memory verse for the 15th of October. So here it is:

For you, O God, test us, you refine us like silver. You brought us into prison and laid burdens on our backs. You let men ride over our heads; we went through fire and water, but you brought us to a place of abundance.

~Psalm 66:10-12


I love the idea of Him bringing me to a place of abundance and I have seen it happen. Just like my marriage and many other things in my life. I really was struggling in September and fell into some depression. I know now some of what I was going through was a part of the refining process. We will deal with different struggles. We struggle against the Enemy, the world, and our flesh. But sometimes what we go through is part of that refining process that God takes us through to make us beautiful and more like Him. I am so thankful He loves me enough and cares enough to take me through that process. That He desires to be in relationship with me and that He desires to redeem me and make me whole and beautiful.

I hope you have a blessed weekend and I hope if you are struggling that You let the words of that verse comfort you. He will bring you to a place of abundance. His word promises it!

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Bible Study

Change of Pace started their 2nd 6 week session for the fall yesterday and I jumped in. I was so sad to not be apart of the first 6 weeks and I couldn't wait to get there. I am facilitating "Anointed, Transformed, Redeemed: A Study of David" and I am so excited. I have done several studies on David and learn something new and exciting each time.

As I drove away yesterday I thought about all those beautiful ladies gathered there to study God's word together. All of them just waiting to see what God would speak to them through this study. I thought "I live to do Bible study" and I heard God say "No, you do Bible study to live the life I have for you". You see as much as I think I live to "do Bible study" God knows when I study His word and I meet with Him each day He will give me everything I need to live life abundantly. His Word brings life and freedom.

I love that I have been given the ability to study His word. Me! A girl who failed algebra 2,barely made it through high school, and NEVER attended college. That is what He does for us. He makes the mysteries of His word known if we will just meet with Him, ask for revelation, and dig our heels in and not give up! It doesn't matter who we are or where we are or where we have been for that matter. It is available to everyone no matter the economic status or intellect. I don't care if you are as blonde as the day is long(natural or from a bottle!) or if you have a Phd. He gives freely to EVERYONE who seekd His face!

I live to do Bible study
I do Bible study to live!

Have a blessed day!

Monday, October 26, 2009

How Are You Doing???

I have 4 things checked off my list.....how about you? Remember:

1. Pray
2. Prioritize
3. Plan
4. Put it into action!

Have a blessed night!

Make a Choice Monday

I am a procrastinator. Have been as long as I can remember. I was the one who crammed for tests and waited until the night before a paper was due to write it. This has its advantages and disadvantages. I used to look at it only in a negative light but I realized having the ability to put some things aside and just enjoy life has its advantages.

Unfortunately I have been putting too much aside lately and I need to gain some control. I have a few things that need my attention NOW! So today my choice I am making is to:

1. Pray
2. Prioritize
4. Plan
3. Put it into action

I want God to order my "to do" list. I don't want the list to control me but be a guide. If God brings some unexpected thing my way today that is ok too. His word is clear.....

Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and your plans will succeed. ~Proverbs 16:3

In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps. ~Proverbs 16:9


I am also going to make a list but set a goal of doing the top three things today. If I took a list and thought I had to accomplish it all today I would become overwhelmed and would shut down and accomplish nothing. I am going to take baby steps today. A small choice to make life a bit easier.

My list will probably look something like this:

1. E-mail questions to MOPS group that I am speaking at next week.

2. Go through Catey's winter clothes.

3. Check on my grandma who hasn't been feeling well.

4. Set a date to have coffee with a friend that I was supposed to e-mail last week:)

5. Finish my talk on the 3 R's of Motherhood for Tuesday.

6. Get kids costumes for our churches Trunk or Treat on Friday.

7. Get caught up on correcting Cayla's grammar and vocab.

You get the idea. I have a lot swirling around in my mind and I just need to sit down and get a list going and have God help me to prioritize and get things done. Not everything today but I bet by the end of the week I can have this list gone!

So remember today to choose to Pray, Prioritize, Plan, and Put it into action!

Have a blessed day!

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Today

Today I am headed to the EFCA Eastern District Conference. This summer I was asked to be on the women's ministry board and this is my first official meeting in that capacity. I am excited.

Greg is in the mountains hunting and I am missing him terribly. I HATE doing life all alone. I am thankful to have an 18 year old son to be the "man of the house". I used to be terribly afraid and not sleep well when Greg went away now between Chris and my 90 lb dog I know nobody is going to get in here:)

Chris started a full time job yesterday. He is not sure if it is really what he wants to do. Please pray for him. He has been struggling with what he wants to do and I know this is a very tough time. I thought when the kids got older my job would get easier. Physically it does but emotionally it is really tough. I want so much for him to find the thing that God created him for and for him to find that peace that passes all understanding. The hard thing about being the mom when they are this age is you can't do it for them. They have to wrestle through things and struggle for themselves and I hate that.

Well sorry for the rambling. I am really trying to process some of what I am feeling right now. Motherhood has so many different phases and stages - just when I get through one thing I am starting something else. I am so glad I am not doing it alone and that God is walking right beside me!

Have a blessed day!

Monday, October 19, 2009

Make A Choice Monday

A wife of noble character who can find? She is worth far more than rubies. Her husband has full confidence in her and lacks nothing of value. She brings him good, not harm, all the days of her life. ~Proverbs 31:10-12

A mother of noble character. No. A friend of noble character. No. Ok, ok – I got it. A ministry leader of noble character. NO! Ugh!!! It doesn’t say any of that. It says wife. A wife of noble character is worth far more than rubies. I know some days this wife ain’t worth a cubic zirconium.

I spend a lot of time trying to “produce” great kids. I spend a lot of time trying to be a good friend. I also spend a lot of time doing “ministry” whether it is speaking, preparing to speak, or being a part of the women’s ministry team for the Eastern District. But the one area I know I am lacking is working on being a good wife. I mean I have good intentions but somehow all those other things choke out my ambition and I end up empty for the man that I am supposed to be bringing good, not harm to for all the days of my life.

So today my choice is to think about my husband and what I can do today to make his life a bit easier. To bring him good and make my marriage a priority. I know when I get things in the proper order things go much better. God first and Greg second. Even after 18 years of marriage I have a lot to learn.

I am going to be going through Proverbs 31 over the next few Mondays. I hope you will join me. I used to think the idea of this Proverbs 31 woman was totally absurd and unattainable but I know now that I can learn a lot from this “chick”. I also know that I am on a journey. It is not about perfection but about how much I depended on God along the way. I am going to depend on Him to teach me to be a wife of noble character.

Have a blessed day!

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Cayla

Conversation with my girl:

"Cayla you are so beautiful"

"Well I hope its from the inside mom"

"Yes baby it is that is what makes you so extraordinary"

Here are pics from her first dance. She is so beautiful and I can't even take any credit because she is the spittin' image of her daddy!





Thursday, October 15, 2009

Thankful Thursday

I thought I would do Thankful Thursday again with Runner Mom and Truth 4 The Journey.

Don't have a lot of time but I will give you a quick run down:

1. I am thankful that I got to meet with a client and her boyfriend at SVPS. She had an abortion and I was able to share my story with her. Please pray for her boyfriend. He said he wanted to make changes but he thought it was too late and that he had done too many wrong things. We were able to share with him that IT IS NEVER TOO LATE!!!!! Hallelujah - Praise God.

2. I am thankful that my kids are healthy and Chris starts a new job on Tuesday. I guess I am thankful that Cayla is going to go to a homecoming dance on Saturday. She is way too beautiful and looks way too old in her dress :(

3. I am thankful that even though I am wrestling something through with God right now He is patient with me.

4. I am thankful that God has been giving me some inspiration for 2 talks I have coming up. One is on motherhood. I thought it would be simple. I didn't realize the jumbled ball of emotions that would come along with preparing for it. The other is on our relationship with God. I am talking in December and January on this theme.

5. I am thankful for my new make-up. Lame I know. But I haven't looked like this in years.

So what about you??? What are you thankful for today? I would love to hear about it.

Have a blessed night!

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

You get what you pay for.....

Ok. I want to be the new spokeswoman for Bare Escentuals. I know, I know...last year it was Under Armour but they never called so....I actually came across this wonderful little stuff(and I do mean little - the jar is tiny - the price tag is not) through a bizarre set of circumstances. Some of my make-up has let's just say mysteriously disappeared. A few weeks ago Carla came over and showed me her Bare Escentuals she just bought. I looked longingly at the box because I love anything new and anything with the promise of giving some of my youth back. Hahahahaha.

I knew because of recent make-up purchases, probably 3 or 4 different foundations to be exact, I really shouldn't go buy anything else. But now with this mysterious disappearance(no I didn't accidentally on purpose lose it) I was on my way to Park City to the new Bare Escentuals Store.

I was in a hurry but the saleslady was quick. She had my exact color within minutes. As I was applying it this morning, in a circular motion of course, I couldn't believe how much I loved it and wondered where it had been all my life. Lancome is dead to me.

All this to say, you do usually get what you pay for unfortunately. Like a really good cut and color(by the way I got my hair done today maybe I will post pics later) or nothing like Under Armour keeps me as warm in the winter. Although I guess there are a few exceptions because even though Lancome is dead to me the relationship was costly.

I would like to say that Under Armour is dead to me too since they never called but I will chalk that up to not being 19 and in great shape and I will let you know if I get any calls about being a spokeswoman this year. I figure I could have a chance since I have a lot that needs covered up. Too much sun damage:( I will also be thankful for my new makeup and hope it doesn't disappear:)

Have a blessed day!

Monday, October 12, 2009

Make A Choice Monday

"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways," declares the Lord. "As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts. As the rain and the snow come down from heaven, and do not return to it without watering the earth and making it bud and flourish, so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater, so is my word that goes out from my mouth: It will not return to me empty, but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it. You will go out in joy and be led forth in peace; the mountains and hills will burst into song before you, and all the trees of the field will clap their hands. Instead of the thornbush will grow the pine tree, and instead of briers the myrtle will grow. This will be for the Lord's renown, for an everlasting sign, which will not be destroyed." ~Isaiah 55:8-13

I listened to the end of a sermon yesterday on the radio. It really spoke to me. I am going to link it here for you to listen to you if you have time. You will need to click on “current series” and listen to “Does God really care” – October 4th.

The sermon talked about being angry with God when there is suffering. He had the coolest illustration. He said that if you saw him cutting off someone’s leg you would think he were some kind of animal and be distraught but what if you saw it and later found out that by cutting off the leg it saved that person’s life. Changes things doesn’t it???? It is that way with God. We don’t get to see the whole picture or know all the details and we often become angry and bitter with God when there is suffering but I wonder how it would change if we could see the big picture. His ways are higher than our ways. Period. I needed to hear this right now.

Just like that sermon spoke to me yesterday His word is there for us to speak to our situation every day. So today let’s choose to be in His word and listening to those who are teaching His word. I thought about how this seems like such an obvious thing. I kept hearing the song I sang as a child that said “read my Bible and pray every day”! But I realize that there are days that go by and I am busy and I don’t do this. Then I feel so empty. I try listen to a few different sermons/teachings on the internet each week. You can find a lot of great stuff at Oneplace. Often the things I hear are just the things I need at the moment. I love how God does that. I could spend that time mindlessly doing other things (and often I do) but when I choose to listen I am fed. It is that simple but I have to do something He doesn’t just drop it on my head! It is my choice when it comes to how I will spend my time. When I do It helps me to go out in joy and be led forth in peace and I have the promise that His word will not return void.

Have a blessed day!

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Permission To Let Go

If you found me through the Internet Cafe Devotions I just want to say welcome. Grab a cup of coffee and sit back and enjoy. If you read my blog regularly I am a guest today over at the Cafe, just click on the "I saved you a seat" button on the right to read "Letting Go".

I wrote that devotion a while ago but the funny thing is as I type this tears are still filling my eyes and threatening to spill over onto my key board. Some things we struggle with our whole existence and letting go is one of those things for me. I often feel like I need someone to give me permission to let go because I am so afraid. So today I am giving you permission and I hope I listen to my own advice:)

I have a "letting go" list. I thought I would share some of it with you so you know you are not alone:

1. I am letting go of some dreams I had for loved ones in my life. I just need to trust He loves them more than I do. Carrying the burden of what should be was never meant to be ours to carry.

2. I am letting go of trying to be the Holy Spirit in others life. There are some things that simply only He can do and I waste a lot of time and energy trying to do something when I should be praying.

3. I am letting go of the false image that I have been bombarded with regarding how a woman should look and should age. I am hoping to just grow old gracefully doing what I can and letting go of the rest.

4. I am letting go of some bitterness and anger right now over a certain situation. Letting go doesn't make the situation ok but it makes me ok!

5. I am letting go of the expectations I have put on the people and the circumstances in my life. I don't know what today will bring.

Sometimes we have to let go of what we are clinging to so tightly to be able to grab hold of God and the plan he has for us. Ephesians 3:20 tells us He is able to do more than we can ask or imagine.

As hard as this all is I know there is great blessing when I turn it over to God. That thing I wrote about in my previous devotion was my position as leader at women's ministry at my church. I hated to let go even though I heard God asking me to. The amazing thing is now it is a few months later and He has given me many opportunities to speak and also to serve Him in other ways. Ways that were far more than I could ask or imagine.

We are limiting ourselves by holding on. We are also tiring ourselves out. I know I often feel more tired than a woman my age should feel and then I go to His precious Word and I read Matthew 11:28:

Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.

So not only will He give us more than we can ask for but He will carry our burdens for us! Hallelujah!

I pray you have a blessed weekend and although the letting go process is a difficult one I pray you trust in the One who desires to bless you and give you rest. He gives you permission to let go. He is waiting.......

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Thankful Thursday

Thankful Thursday at Truth 4 the Journey

I was over reading Runner Mom's blog and she was participating in a Thankful Thursday at Truth for the Journey. I thought it was a cool idea so I am going to go ahead and post my list:

1. I am thankful for my hubby and my kids and how God has kept us safe and healthy.

2. I am thankful for the house we have although I often grumble and complain I know I am really blessed.

3. I am thankful for some very dear friendships that have been an encouragement to me.

4. I am thankful for the freedom to homeschool, even though it can be difficult I at least have a choice.

5. I am thankful that God hears me and wants to be in relationship with me!

How about you??? I would love to hear your list.

Have a blessed day!

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Too Tired Tuesday....or

Too Busy Tuesday

Too Uninspired Tuesday

Too Hormonal Tuesday

Too Many Kids Tuesday:)

Too Something or Another Tuesday

I thought since I totally left Monday come and go without "Make a Choice" I should come up with a name for today. Monday slipped through my hands like grains of sand - just like time always has a way of doing. I have great intentions and I think of the blog often throughout the day but because of the reasons listed above(and many more by the way) it doesn't get written. I was feeling discouraged yesterday anyway. I wanted to give up on something. That is until I went to Bonni's house for something we affectionately call "Mom's Night". Bonni hasn't had one in a while and I was so glad to be back at her house. What a blessing she is. She encouraged me so much. The word encourage literally means "to give courage to". My friend literally gave me courage to keep doing what I am doing(this has to do with homeschooling by the way). She asked me a hard question and really got me thinking about things. So, I guess my choice yesterday would have been to tell you to choose to find someone to encourage you if you feel like giving up.

Bonni has a wonderful blog by the way and I encourage you to read it. It is full of sooo much wisdom. She said she wasn't sure if she would have another Mom's night. She was fulfilling a commitment to her co-op. I hope if you read this Bonni you know how much I appreciate you and hope to hear soon of a date in November for our next meeting:)

Have a blessed day!

Friday, October 2, 2009

Starbucks, Soup, and Uggs....

Ok so I thought of 3 more reasons that its ok it is getting cold. I love a warm bowl of Chicken Corn Chowder and you can hardly eat that when its hot or what about Starbucks??? It is hard to drink a peppermint mocha in the middle of the afternoon when its 90 degrees out. And who doesn't love a warm comfortable pair of Uggs. I could hardly wait to get mine out for the season.

So there! I will survive. I need to just be thankful that I am not one of those outrageous headlines I read yesterday like the poor woman who got pregnant while she was already pregnant. I had no idea that could happen. I thought the the good thing about being pregnant was that you didn't have to worry about getting pregnant. Then I read that a nude photo of Brooke Shields, from when she was 10, was pulled from some exhibit. You heard that right - 10! Well I guess so and I hope whoever took the photo is in jail.

And once again on a totally unrelated note I watched a slide show on the falls latest fashion trends. It was all about leggings. I am not sure how to feel about this. I am really struggling with the fact that I don't think I can do leggings along with the skinny jeans. So I wonder....is this when it happens? Is this the age when I become a totally out of style mom. You know you often wonder why as women get older they don't seem to keep up with the latest trends and I think I may have found the answer. Something comes along that they just can't pull off so they stay stuck in the previous seasons styles and they stay frozen there. I guess I may just be frozen in the wide legged jeans era(I hope my kids don't make fun and say I am so out of style:).

Well we are headed t the mountains for the weekend and I haven't packed. I am also watching Nathan and need to pick Cayla up at her Algebra class.

Have a blessed day!

Thursday, October 1, 2009

What is Global Warming?????

I know that science was never a strong subject area for me but what in the world is global warming???? As I sit here and type this my fingers are so cold they are numb and how is it that 50 degrees feels great in February but on October 1st I am afraid Greg will come home and find me frozen to my chair. I think it is time to crank up the furnace and get out my heating blanket. Greg will love that! On a more positive note I thought I would make a list of good things about being cold. You know try the power of positive thinking thing. Turn the negative into positive. Turn things around - chiastic structure or something like that for all you Esther ladies. So here goes:

1. I can wear sweatshirts and sweaters to hide the 10lbs I want to lose.
2. I have an excuse to buy these cute boots and this sweater.
3. Lower my risk of skin cancer

Ok 3 was all I could come up with but its a start. I guess I need to just embrace the change of seasons since my whining and begging to move to warmer temperatures(maybe someplace this global warming thing is happening)hasn't worked.

On a totally unrelated note Cayla got asked to the homecoming dance. Tuesday night in my kitchen her brother danced with her because she was afraid she wouldn't know how. As long as I live I hope I always remember that moment etched in time. I get a tear thinking about how fast they have grown up. She is nervous about dancing since we homeschoolers never really have a chance to do that. I can't wait to go dress shopping, which by the way her brother also said he needs to approve of the dress. I love the way he protects her.

Yesterday was Carla's birthday. Happy birthday friend! Her and I walk every morning at 5:50. Instead of walking today we surprised her with breakfast. Greg is a fantastic cook and I was happy to not have to be in the cold!

And finally(talk about a random post)this is my scripture for October 1st:

Revelation 17:14 (NIV)
"They will make war against the Lamb, but the Lamb will overcome them because He is Lord of lords and King of kings--and with Him will be His called, chosen and faithful followers."

HALLELUJAH! Doesn't that just make everything ok. I praise Him that I was called and chosen and I pray I show myself faithful!

Have a blessed day!