Tuesday, October 16, 2012

So here's the long and the short of it....

First I got sick.

And then a few of my kids got it.

Amidst all of the sickness we had: 

  • Soccer games 
  • A driving test (Cayla passed by the way!!!) 
  • A fundraising banquet 
  • We took care of grandma (She is 94 and I am her primary caretaker)
  • Hockey game 
  • Church Farm Day
  • Homeschool Co-op
  • I spoke at Moms of Grace 
  • Living, breathing, eating, and a little bit of sleeping 

And just when I caught my breath my mother-in-law fell and is in the hospital in need of surgery but is not well enough to have it. I did write a post at Beauty And The Beast Within you might enjoy reading about taking our health seriously.

So there you have it. The long and the short of why I must NEVER again say I will post everyday:)

See you again when I can. Giving myself some grace for now.

Have a blessed day!

 

Monday, October 8, 2012

Meditate On His Word!



One thing I have been doing is writing through different books of the Bible. I just start at the beginning of the book and write a few verses a day. I did this through Beth Moore's study of James and a few times with Good Morning Girls.

 I love meditating on those verses each day and writing them out.

So how do you like to meditate on His Word?   I would love to hear from you!

Have a blessed day!



Sunday, October 7, 2012

So true....

Saturday, October 6, 2012

I will write EVERY day in October and other falsehoods uncovered...

There is no cake in a rice cake.

Cellulite cream really can't get rid of your cellulite.

Mascara can't give you the eyelashes like the model who advertises it.

If it says it tastes the same with half the calories you can actually count on it to have half the taste.

Sticks and stones will break your bones but words WILL also hurt you.

Instant never tastes like homemade.

You can have your cake and eat it too but it might make you gain weight.

And finally I said I would write everyday in October and we all knew that life would happen and I would miss a day like yesterday. 

So there you have it.  Everything you ever thought was a lie you can now rest knowing that you were right.

Good night bloggy land!

Be blessed!




Thursday, October 4, 2012

Think on this Thursday!

Faith, Family, and Fabulous things! 

 



Thought I would give you something to think about today!

I love Proverbs and have spent the last year going through them verse by verse with my kids and having them illustrate them! It has been a wonderful exercise and I love looking back at the pictures and how they interpret and apply the verses to their lives.

Have a blessed day!

Wednesday, October 3, 2012

The World's Best Apple Pie!

Day 3 of faith, family, and fabulous things.....

It's Fall and one of my favorite things do to do in the fall is to pick apples! It is a fabulously fun activity to do as a family.


Even though apples were one of my "7" food items I have not completely lost my love for them especially now that I can bake them in a warm, gooey, yummy pie!

I have tried many different recipes but this one is BY FAR my families favorite!

World's Best Apple Pie

  • Approx. 6 cups of sliced apples    
  • 1 T lemon juice                              
  • 1/2 cup sugar                                  
  • 1/2 cup packed brown sugar          
  • 2 T all-purpose flour                       
  • 1/2 tsp cinnamon   
  • 1/4 tsp nutmeg
  • double pie crust
  • 2 T butter
  • 1 egg yolk, beaten
  • 2tsp sugar & 1/8 tsp cinnamon combined                                                       
Combine apples, lemon juice, sugars, flour, cinnamon, and nutmeg.  Spoon into bottom pie crust; dot with butter.  Top with remaining crust.  Cut slits or something pretty in top crust.  Brush with egg yolk.  Sprinkle with cinnamon & sugar.  Cover edges of crust loosely with strips of foil to prevent burning.  Bake at 450 degrees for 15 minutes and then reduce heat to 350 degrees and bake for an additional 50 minutes.  Serve with a big scoop of ice cream and enjoy!

Hope you enjoy this recipe as much as we have!

Have a blessed day!


*Disclaimer I am not becoming a food blog nor have a developed a love for the kitchen or cooking.  I just happen to love sweet, gooey, wonderful things!  Just thought I would throw that in there since this is my second day of posting a recipe:)

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

31 Day Challenge

Faith, Family, and Fabulous things month!

Today I have a fabulous recipe to share! I wanted to have pics but that didn't happen....sorry. This is a new favorite dessert of our family! It is quick and it is easy and it is yummy!

TEXAS GOLD BARS

1 pkg. yellow cake mix (plain, without pudding)
1 egg, slightly beaten
1/2 c. butter, melted
1 tbsp. vanilla
1 pkg. (8 oz.) cream cheese
1 lb. powdered sugar
2 eggs, slightly beaten

Preheat oven to 325 degrees. Combine cake mix, 1 egg and melted butter. Press into an ungreased 9 x 13 inch pan. Mix remaining ingredients and spread over top. Bake for 50 minutes.

Hope you enjoy it as much as we have!

 

Monday, October 1, 2012

Bloggy Conference 2012, 7, and other great things!

Bloggy Conference 2012 was great!

So blessed to be able to go and to also spend time with Cayla.

7 on the other hand did not end so well this month. I can think of every excuse in the book but it would be a waste of time. The bottom line is the food thing was so much harder than I ever imagined it would be. The first week was terribly hard, the second week I came up with every reason I could to eat other things, and the third and fourth week I was lucky if I didn't eat 77 things each day let alone 7.

I am not sure what I learned about myself and I am still trying to figure that all out.  And now month 2 is here and it is the 7 articles of clothing month and although there are far less gray areas in this month(you wear what you chose and that's that) I think it might be tougher than the food was(if you haven't read the book, which I recommend you do, this month I choose only 7 pieces of clothing to wear all month long). I have had a terribly busy day so I plan on choosing my clothes this evening but know that the capris and black shirt I am wearing right now will be a part of it. With that all said I will  keep you up to date on all my excuses and failures and I pray some victories as I struggle to weed through this thing called excess.

With that all said I have been feeling inspired to do some new things with the blog.  Maybe it was the conference or maybe it just feels time for something fresh and new.  Soon it will have a new design and be moving away from blogspot.  No worries for you 3 people out there reading when you come here if I am gone you will be redirected I promise.

With the new design and move I wanted to do some creative things with the content this month and I stumbled upon The Nester's 31 days series and I decided to jump in.  So I will be writing here over the next 31 days about "Faith, Family, and Fabulous Things" and I will be blogging over at my other site Beauty and the Beast Within about 31 days to healthier you!

I hope you will join me!  And even though today didn't really encompass too much faith, family or any fabulous things you can bet I won't be posting again tonight so I guess I tomorrow I will need to share an extra fabulous thing:)

See ya tomorrow!  Be blessed!



Thursday, September 27, 2012

Bloggy Conference 2012

I'm here!

In Cincinnati!

At the Hyatt Regency!

Attending and speaking at Bloggy Conference 2012!

And I am super excited and can't wait to tell you all about it when I get home!

Just thought I would let you know:)


 

Monday, September 17, 2012

Confessions of a 7 Failure

Yep. That's the title of the book my daughter said we could write.

Confessions of a 7 failure.

That is what we have felt like so I thought I would dedicate this post to our failures. Confession is good for the soul, right? So here goes:

1. Someone ate the corner off a leftover cookie last week.

 

I noticed it.

I mentioned it.

My daughter fessed up to it.

Then I broke out in rolling-on-the-floor laughter because I had my own confession to make....I ate a spoonful of leftover icing.

2. Wednesday night we had our weekly outing for dinner with my 94 year old grandma.


She wouldn't understand 7 if I even tried to explain it and she thinks if you like something you should eat it and eat lots of it.
 
So we went to a place in town that she picked. A place that laughs in the face of plain grilled chicken. The kind of place that has a deep frier and they aren't afraid to use it. A place that has never and will never serve rice.

So we ate.

We ate whatever we wanted and topped it off with ice cream.

3. Friday night after my daughters game before the football game we went to Subway.

 

I could have asked for plain grilled chicken with spinach no bread but I didn't.

I ate a turkey sub.

Enough said.

4. Saturday I was going to see Beth Moore and Cayla was going to the Uprise Festival.

 

Once again these are places that do not serve our typical 7 cuisine so we had already decided to eat whatever we wanted.

We decided it days before and were looking forward to it like a kid in a candy store.

5. That brings us to yesterday.

 

The sabbath.

A day of worship.

 A day to get back on 7 and back into some simplicity and fasting from all the foods not on "the list".

While in church some things were bothering. For one I was hungry and hormonal and secondly I think I was coming under attack from the beautiful conference the day before and then it happened.

 I got a text.

 A devastating text.

The kind that makes you question everything.

I got angry.

Angry at God.

Angry at evil.

Just plain old angry.

In my anger I got home and ate whatever I wanted. I did it out of a rebellious heart. I was good and mad and this was my way to show it.

So there you have it. Confessions from a girl who had some failures along the way on this journey.

And that brings me to today. A new day. A fresh start. A day of confessions and renewal and new beginnings. 

Well my eggs are awaiting so I better go. I will keep you updated!

Be blessed!

 

Wednesday, September 12, 2012

Doubt, Yellow Buses, and a Water Walking Homeschooling Mama!

Every day its the same thing.

You see I homeschool.

I have for 12 years.....12 long years.

I know I am called to do it but to be honest it has been a lot harder than I thought it would be.

A lot harder than many of the books I read made it seem.

A. Lot. Harder. Period.

I cry some days.

I laugh my fool head off others. Usually not in joy just in the I-will-lose-my-mind-if-I-don't-laugh-right-now way!

I have tried every curriculum and every style. I have unschooled, done textbooks, cyber schooled, and any other schooled you can think of.
 
I did all that most of the time because I was doubting myself. I doubt my ability. I doubt I will stay sane. I doubt that I was really called to this and I don't doubt that someday I will paying for their therapists.

One morning I was up early doubting myself AGAIN(in one of my I don't care when they get up the later they sleep the better phases) I caught myself looking out the window and watching the big yellow bus roll by. It wasn't the first morning I had watched this phenomenon. In fact I made a habit of it. Looking. Longing. Wondering why God called me to this and also quite honestly wondering why I was obeying Him.

And then I heard it. That still small voice. "Stop looking at the bus!" It shook me out of my "yellow bus" trance and then I heard it again. "Stop looking at the bus and look to me!"

That's when it hit me.

I had spent so much time doubting and fretting and wondering and fussing and staring blankly out the window at the bus that I missed it. I missed Him. The Him who was calling me. The Him who so wanted to empower me. The Him who loved me and loves them and has the power to keep them out of therapy. The Him that is bigger than me and my inadequacies as a homeschool mom. The Him I should be looking to.

I thought of Peter walking on the water.

Matthew 14 finds Peter in a storm. Much like the storm that homeschooling can be for me sometimes.

28 “Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.”

29 “Come,” he said. Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus.

30 But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!”

 31 Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?”

 "Why did you doubt?" Just a simple question much like my yellow bus moment.

So today my friends I am going to stop doubting and for pity sakes I AM GOING TO STOP LOOKING AT THE DANG BUS. I'm just going to keep my eyes on Him and have the faith that knows He will work this homeschooling thing all out.

Please pray for me and let me pray for you? Would love to hear from you!

Be blessed!



Monday, September 10, 2012

7....an update!

So I am almost a week in and I thought I would share some things I am learning....

love used to love apples. 

There are only so many combinations of chicken/spinach/rice and I have tried them all.

I think about food(and so does my family) way more than I ever would have admitted.

I am a person of excess in this area....just yesterday I hosted the dessert part of a progressive dinner for college students and made 2 kinds of cookies, Texas Gold, cupcakes, peanut butter chocolate chip cookie cups, and banana pudding. I couldn't just do two or three desserts. I had to do more. Can anyone say EXCESS.

I don't suggest hosting aforementioned gathering during the food month of 7 and yes I did cheat and taste a few things and lick a few spoons in case you were wondering.

I have felt hunger this week. Not starvation by any means and not because of lack of food but because I am too lazy to bake chicken at 8:00 at night and my system can not handle one more apple or more yogurt. It made me think of all the children who go to bed hungry every day and the moms who give up their food so a child can eat and I wept for them.

I wish I had some more earth shattering insights to share. I don't but I do feel God slowly working on those inner places that I keep so guarded......even from Him.

Well that's all for now I have a scrambled egg calling my name from the kitchen and chicken that needs made if I am going to eat lunch.

Be blessed!

Friday, September 7, 2012

The Last Little Hand I Have to Hold

It's just a phase.

I know this.

I know this well.

I have been through various phases(I think all of them???) over the last 21 years of parenting and I know as quickly as this one started it will come to end. All things do. Nothing lasts forever.

So, if I "know" all of this why do I let little things bother me?

It started a few months ago. He doesn't want to leave my side. He cried to go to day camp and only made it there 2 out of the 5 days because the fight was too much. He wants to go everywhere with me and always wants to know where I am. It started driving me crazy.

Just today I wanted him to stay at his grandmas for 10 minutes until I picked something up. Both his brother and his sisters were there. He ran to the door after me and in a really-not-kind-mom tone I said ok and took him with me.

We got to the bottom of the steps and I was feeling agitated.  It would slow me down and I had an agenda but then he grabbed my hand.

I felt a tear come to my eyes.

God used that moment to remind me of some really important things about being a mother.

This child loves me....unconditionally. He is the last of seven and he wants to be with me and still wants to hold my hand. It is an honor to be blessed to be his mom and I should be ever so thankful he still wants to be with me.

Lord please help me to remember that he is the last little hand I have to hold.  Help me to be patient and kind and gentle.  Remind me to cherish the moments I have with him and never let me forget how quickly time passes.... for in no time this little phase will pass and that little hand won't be there for me to hold.  Let me live in the moments and hang on as long as I can because the lasts are as precious as the firsts and there is much beautiful living to be done in between. Too beautiful to mar it with impatience and unkind words.  Too beautiful to waste.


 

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

7....day 2

How many apples can one person eat before developing intestinal issues?

I'm addicted to sugar.

Of course there is a bunch of talk about salted caramel mocha's at Starbucks.

7 is not my friend today....enough said.

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

7 : An Experimental Mutiny Against Excess by Jen Hatmaker

 

So I read the book.

It got in my business.

I tried to forget the book.

I couldn't.

It all started pretty innocently. 7 by Jen Hatmaker gets casually mentioned at Bible study. They said it was a great book. I love a great book, plus I had some beach time coming up so I downloaded it to my Kindle.

I can never wait to start reading something even if it was intended for the beach. It is sort of like telling my self the cookies are for after dinner.....yeah right. So I started reading. I couldn't put it down. I laughed. I cried at the excess I recognized in my own life. A friend was reading it also and we compared notes and then I left. For Hawaii.

Can anyone say.....EXCESS.

From Haiti to Hawaii in one summer.

Talk about two worlds colliding. I came home and the book, the trip to Haiti, and the James Bible study wouldn't let me alone. The thoughts were all buzzing in my head like a gnat I couldn't get rid of. Not to mention going to hear Shane Claiborne speak. I had been had. If God was trying to tell me something He was telling me loud and clear and I couldn't ignore it anymore.

So today starts my journey with 7. In following the book I'm starting with food and hope to over the next 7 months to rid myself from some excess but most importantly become an empty vessel open to the filling of the Holy Spirit.

Over the next 4 weeks the only 7 foods my daughter and I (she read the book too....it messed her up too) will be consuming are:

Chicken
Spinach
Rice
Yogurt
Apples
Eggs
Ezekiel Bread

I will be drinking water and one cup of black coffee a day(Jen gave up coffee...she was brave....I am not).

I will keep you posted on how this all works and if you get a chance you really need to read the book!

 

Friday, July 27, 2012

Haiti, How I Miss You!

It is so hard to believe I have already been back from Haiti for several weeks. It truly was a life changing trip. Sometimes when trips like that have such an impact it is hard to come home and know what to do. But what I have come to realize is that even though the trip changed much about my perspective and my view on the excess in my life....life here does still need to go on.

I can make changes and I can pray for and love the people of Haiti but I also need to keep things going here. Sitting around longing to go back really accomplishes nothing. I can make it a goal but still need to do the things I need to do.

Does that make sense? Just thought I would put it out there in case someone else has come off a life changing experience and now doesn't know what to do next. Just do the next thing. Whatever that is. Right where God has you at this moment.

One thing that I have found amazing this year is how God has used my "Radical Revival" time and my study of the book of James and my trip to truly give me a heart of compassion and burning desire to do something about all the poverty that surrounds me. Whether that is here or in Haiti.

 I will leave you with one of my favorite pics from the trip!

 Have a blessed day!

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

Radical Revival Still Rolling On

Day 27.

338 to go.

Goal: Radical Revival.

Well it is almost a month since this little(I should say rather large) project started. I have gotten up everyday and searched His Word for a divine assignment!

He has been so gracious.

I have been filled and am in awe.

If we seek Him we do find Him. I am being so challenged in all areas of my life to truly live the life He calls me to. In it there is such peace but not only that much excitement. He is stirring things in my heart and placing burdens on my heart and I can't wait to see what happens this year.

He has even brought me great comfort and hope on mornings that I didn't feel like opening my Bible and I felt overwhelmed. I did it anyway and He blessed that obedience and lifted my spirit almost immediately.

He who goes out weeping, carrying seed to sow, will return with songs of joy, carrying sheaves with him. ~Psalm 126:6

I am truly learning that we reap what we sow.

We reap.......

what we sow.

We reap what we sow!

I pray you too have a radical revival going on! I pray you go on sowing even if it is in tears because you will return with songs of joy!

Grace to all!


Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Radical Revival Recap

Day 12.

353 to go.

Goal: Radical Revival

12 days in and this has been much harder than I imagined. You see the bottom line is in order to be radically revived you really need to allow God access to every part of your heart.

You need to completely die to yourself.

You need to completely change your thought process.

Impossible....No.

Painful....yes, at times.

The last several days have taken me to passages that have caused me to evaluate things like:

  • being humble
  • where do I put my hope
  • do I delight in His Word
  • do I sow in peace
  • how do I handle anger

Oh and my favorite:

Wives, submit to your husbands as to the Lord. ~Ephesians 5:22

Those of you who know me I give permission for you to chuckle....for those who don't, yes I am a little bit(ahem)feisty! In fact that morning I wish I would have opened to something in the Old Testament that instructed me to sacrifice a goat in my backyard....it would have been easier for me.

Anyway, I am learning to seek Him and search His Word and use what I read in His Word to search my heart and clean out all the yuck that is in there.

I hope to be able to check in more often. i would love to hear from you. How is 2012 going for you? Any radical revival's out there?

Busy here preparing to speak 3 times in the next week. Pray for His Words to flow through me because if He does not show up I am worthless on my own!

Grace to all!

Sunday, January 8, 2012

Day 3 Radical Revival

Day 3.

362 to go.

Goal: Radical Revival

Today is day 3. I would like to say that I am flying high and on cloud nine and that this is easy as pie. It is not. Day 1 required me to examine my heart and to evaluate...do I really seek Him with ALL of my heart. Answer...No. So in 2012 I am taking strides to do this walk with ALL of my heart not just the pieces I feel like.

Day 2 I found myself in John 11. After reading and rereading verses 40, 41, and 44b I felt like it was time to:

1. believe
2. give thanks
3. take off the dang grave clothes...I am dead no more

As I said before I am reading Ann Voscamp's 1000 Giftsand I am realizing with no uncertainty that gratitude is an issue for me. I am thankful all right for the things that go my way but heaven forbid they do not. So step number 2 above of give thanks and what that looks like is changing for me. I started my list of a thousand gifts and it has been pretty amazing.

And then as I sat here in the quiet hours of the morning this morning all alone, with just the hum of the refrigerator and the jingle jangle of my two dog's collars as they sat beside me begging for attention, I did it again. I opened the Word and I begged for a revelation. I cried out to Him.

If we seek Him we will find Him.

If we seek Him we will find Him.

If we seek Him we will find Him.

The pages fall open ever so gently to Hebrews. The end of chapter 6. I read and I ponder and I wait. And wait. And wait. As I wait I see the sun starting to rise over the houses across the street and I am taken back at the beauty of the colors that are splashed and splattered across the sky, the work of an artist, and I watched as the sun rose high into the sky and it hit me. Like a ton of bricks. The sun rises and sets each day in its wondrous beauty keeping time whether I watch or not. Whether there is peace or tragedy. Whether I feel empty or full. No matter what disaster befalls us or blessing we receive it does not stop. How many beautiful mornings have I missed?

That's when I got it. Verse 15:

And so after waiting patiently, Abraham received what was promised.


After waiting. After waiting patiently. After waiting patiently Abraham received. How often do I sit with my hands open to the heavens wanting to receive NOW. No patience. Now....not wanting to wait. Wanting what I want when I want it.

So today's radical revival assignment was for me to learn the gift of waiting and while I am waiting to be fully present and engaged in each moment of my living. The sun will surely rise and set each day and I will receive what God promised me but in the mean time....wait....be patient....be fully engaged....and do not miss the beauty that surrounds me in between the rising and the setting of the sun each day.

How about you? How are you doing? I would love to hear from you? Any radical revivals going on out there???

Grace to all who love our Lord Jesus Christ with an undying love. Ephesians 6:24

Grace to all of you today!

Friday, January 6, 2012

Day 1

Day 1.

364 to go.

Goal: Radical Revival

So I woke up this morning a bit blurry from yet another restless night of sleep. I seem to have more and more of those now that I am older. I stumbled downstairs and after my morning ritual of letting dogs out and feeding them and make that first so loved cup of coffee I sat down with my Bible.

Now what I wondered. I am not good at just flipping open my Bible to the perfect passage. Yes there have been many times that I have opened it to the very thing I needed but can I do that 365 times this year I wondered?

Without any other plan in mind I did just that. My eyes immediately fell obviously to the several passages I have underlined. Great I thought. Am I trying too hard? Am I making this whole thing way too complicated? I was so excited last night. Almost giddy at the thought of this dead heart beating again but now here I was at the point that required action and I was blank.

I love ideas and coming up with ideas but I have always struggled with follow through. Some people call that being a visionary. I don't know I always viewed myself as not having the perseverance it takes to complete hard tasks(lack of faith maybe). Who knows? Either way I am determined to do this thing. I have to do this thing. I need to know it works.

So after scanning several passages I landed on Hebrews 11:6.

And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.

And I pondered that. I mean I have faith....right? I believe in God. I speak about His work in my life. Then I started wondering do I really have a strong faith? Or am I the first to run back and tell everyone "the enemies too big"? And then I read the notes at the bottom of my study Bible for that passage and it lead me to Jeremiah 29:12 but I also read on to verse 13.

Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

And there my friends was the treasure!!!! My "when you" for today. When you seek me with all your heart.....

That was it. I haven't been seeking with "all my heart". I mean He has pulled me out of many a pit in my life. Many. But maybe I was seeking with "half my heart". Just enough to feel some freedom. Just enough to get free and then back to "me" and "my" ways. But ALL of my heart.....I don't think so. No just enough so that I feel some level of comfort again.

And so that is my first assignment on this journey. My faith is an issue. Without it I will never make the next 364. This is going to be hard. I knew that going into this but the promise is "when I seek with ALL my heart" I am going to find Him.


Grace to all who love our Lord Jesus Christ with an undying love. ~Ephesians 6:24


Grace to all!

Thursday, January 5, 2012

Radically Being Revived

So I told you that I realized that 2011 was way too much about me...right? Well what do we do when we come to that realization? One of two things....make a plan for change or acknowledge the issue but do nothing to change it(no action). Sad to say I so often do the latter.

The last few days have been different though. I have felt more stirrings and longings for change than I have felt in a long time. It is like I am being resurrected. Dead inside but suddenly life being breathed back into me.

It has come to me from many angles. Reading Ann Voscamps 1,000 Gifts(I highly recommend it), listening to the Passion 2012 conference, visiting a friend with leukemia, sleepless nights, playing the worship music so loud I can't help but lift my hands, praying radical prayers, and most of all the desperation of a soul that was gasping for air.

SO what am I going to do about it?

I have an idea....a few actually.

I want 2012 to be a year of radical revival. Did you ever watch the movie Julie and Julia? She blogs about making something like 526 recipes of Julia Childs in 365 days. Well I am going to do Julie and Jesus only my name isn't Julie and it won't involve one stitch of cooking(at least I hope it doesn't).

I am going to read the Bible and do what it says.

I know what your thinking.....duh isn't that what Christians do??? But I ask you do we? Do we really? Does the sun never go down on our wrath? Do we never get angry and sin? Are we never discontent? I could go on but you get the point.

I know there will be times I mess up. I am human....but to the best of my ability I am going to ask God to lead me to a passage each day and I am going to just do what it says(minus any sacrificing of sheep and such in my backyard). But seriously I am going to live 2012 radically.

I am going to take the "dos" and the "don'ts" and the "when you's" and to the best of my abilities live it out. No overspiritualizing (as well put by Francis Chan....I won't be having a banquet with the poor in my heart) Just living it no matter what it is that He asks me to do that day. I am tired of living for myself. I want to hear and obey every prompting of the Holy Spirit no matter how wild and crazy it may be.

I am in need of some serious healing and I believe this is how God will choose to bring it about.

I will have a radical revival this year.

I am claiming it in the powerful name of Jesus Christ.

So feel free to check in on the blog and keep me accountable. 365 days.....undetermined amount of assignments requiring me to daily take up my cross and follow Him. I am putting on my God-goggles and I am going to move. No more stagnant pools that I swim in but I'm going to be wading in the Living Water!

Grace to all who love our Lord Jesus Christ with an undying love. ~Ephesians 6:24

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

Losing in 2012

The discouraged encourager.

The unmotivated motivator.

The restless peace giver.

Just a few words to describe me in 2011.

As I sit here evaluating the previous year and asking myself where things went wrong I can come up with only one answer.

Me.

I spent the last year swimming in the stagnant pool of my selfish desires and came out of it covered in muck.

I bought what I wanted. I indulged in things that I wanted. I wrote my book. Yes it was to inspire others but it was my idea. I complained when I was uncomfortable and when I had to put something I wanted aside to help others.

Everything was about me and I still wasn't happy. Of course I wasn't. It was never really supposed to be about me was it? It is that backwards theology Christ talked about all the time.

So as I glance back at the previous year and I dream forward into 2012 I am praying to be emptied of myself. I want to take up my cross and lose myself in order to find myself.

...and anyone who does not take his cross and follow me is not worthy of me. Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it. ~Matthew 10:38-39

There will be plenty of opportunities. Not only in the mundane everydayness of life but also in a trip to Haiti and another to Louisiana State Pen. I don't want to swim in that stagnant water of me anymore. I want to be emptied this year for others.

What about you? What are you learning from glancing back at 2011 and from dreaming forward to 2012? I would love to hear from you!

Be blessed!