Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Radical Revival Recap

Day 12.

353 to go.

Goal: Radical Revival

12 days in and this has been much harder than I imagined. You see the bottom line is in order to be radically revived you really need to allow God access to every part of your heart.

You need to completely die to yourself.

You need to completely change your thought process.

Impossible....No.

Painful....yes, at times.

The last several days have taken me to passages that have caused me to evaluate things like:

  • being humble
  • where do I put my hope
  • do I delight in His Word
  • do I sow in peace
  • how do I handle anger

Oh and my favorite:

Wives, submit to your husbands as to the Lord. ~Ephesians 5:22

Those of you who know me I give permission for you to chuckle....for those who don't, yes I am a little bit(ahem)feisty! In fact that morning I wish I would have opened to something in the Old Testament that instructed me to sacrifice a goat in my backyard....it would have been easier for me.

Anyway, I am learning to seek Him and search His Word and use what I read in His Word to search my heart and clean out all the yuck that is in there.

I hope to be able to check in more often. i would love to hear from you. How is 2012 going for you? Any radical revival's out there?

Busy here preparing to speak 3 times in the next week. Pray for His Words to flow through me because if He does not show up I am worthless on my own!

Grace to all!

Sunday, January 8, 2012

Day 3 Radical Revival

Day 3.

362 to go.

Goal: Radical Revival

Today is day 3. I would like to say that I am flying high and on cloud nine and that this is easy as pie. It is not. Day 1 required me to examine my heart and to evaluate...do I really seek Him with ALL of my heart. Answer...No. So in 2012 I am taking strides to do this walk with ALL of my heart not just the pieces I feel like.

Day 2 I found myself in John 11. After reading and rereading verses 40, 41, and 44b I felt like it was time to:

1. believe
2. give thanks
3. take off the dang grave clothes...I am dead no more

As I said before I am reading Ann Voscamp's 1000 Giftsand I am realizing with no uncertainty that gratitude is an issue for me. I am thankful all right for the things that go my way but heaven forbid they do not. So step number 2 above of give thanks and what that looks like is changing for me. I started my list of a thousand gifts and it has been pretty amazing.

And then as I sat here in the quiet hours of the morning this morning all alone, with just the hum of the refrigerator and the jingle jangle of my two dog's collars as they sat beside me begging for attention, I did it again. I opened the Word and I begged for a revelation. I cried out to Him.

If we seek Him we will find Him.

If we seek Him we will find Him.

If we seek Him we will find Him.

The pages fall open ever so gently to Hebrews. The end of chapter 6. I read and I ponder and I wait. And wait. And wait. As I wait I see the sun starting to rise over the houses across the street and I am taken back at the beauty of the colors that are splashed and splattered across the sky, the work of an artist, and I watched as the sun rose high into the sky and it hit me. Like a ton of bricks. The sun rises and sets each day in its wondrous beauty keeping time whether I watch or not. Whether there is peace or tragedy. Whether I feel empty or full. No matter what disaster befalls us or blessing we receive it does not stop. How many beautiful mornings have I missed?

That's when I got it. Verse 15:

And so after waiting patiently, Abraham received what was promised.


After waiting. After waiting patiently. After waiting patiently Abraham received. How often do I sit with my hands open to the heavens wanting to receive NOW. No patience. Now....not wanting to wait. Wanting what I want when I want it.

So today's radical revival assignment was for me to learn the gift of waiting and while I am waiting to be fully present and engaged in each moment of my living. The sun will surely rise and set each day and I will receive what God promised me but in the mean time....wait....be patient....be fully engaged....and do not miss the beauty that surrounds me in between the rising and the setting of the sun each day.

How about you? How are you doing? I would love to hear from you? Any radical revivals going on out there???

Grace to all who love our Lord Jesus Christ with an undying love. Ephesians 6:24

Grace to all of you today!

Friday, January 6, 2012

Day 1

Day 1.

364 to go.

Goal: Radical Revival

So I woke up this morning a bit blurry from yet another restless night of sleep. I seem to have more and more of those now that I am older. I stumbled downstairs and after my morning ritual of letting dogs out and feeding them and make that first so loved cup of coffee I sat down with my Bible.

Now what I wondered. I am not good at just flipping open my Bible to the perfect passage. Yes there have been many times that I have opened it to the very thing I needed but can I do that 365 times this year I wondered?

Without any other plan in mind I did just that. My eyes immediately fell obviously to the several passages I have underlined. Great I thought. Am I trying too hard? Am I making this whole thing way too complicated? I was so excited last night. Almost giddy at the thought of this dead heart beating again but now here I was at the point that required action and I was blank.

I love ideas and coming up with ideas but I have always struggled with follow through. Some people call that being a visionary. I don't know I always viewed myself as not having the perseverance it takes to complete hard tasks(lack of faith maybe). Who knows? Either way I am determined to do this thing. I have to do this thing. I need to know it works.

So after scanning several passages I landed on Hebrews 11:6.

And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.

And I pondered that. I mean I have faith....right? I believe in God. I speak about His work in my life. Then I started wondering do I really have a strong faith? Or am I the first to run back and tell everyone "the enemies too big"? And then I read the notes at the bottom of my study Bible for that passage and it lead me to Jeremiah 29:12 but I also read on to verse 13.

Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

And there my friends was the treasure!!!! My "when you" for today. When you seek me with all your heart.....

That was it. I haven't been seeking with "all my heart". I mean He has pulled me out of many a pit in my life. Many. But maybe I was seeking with "half my heart". Just enough to feel some freedom. Just enough to get free and then back to "me" and "my" ways. But ALL of my heart.....I don't think so. No just enough so that I feel some level of comfort again.

And so that is my first assignment on this journey. My faith is an issue. Without it I will never make the next 364. This is going to be hard. I knew that going into this but the promise is "when I seek with ALL my heart" I am going to find Him.


Grace to all who love our Lord Jesus Christ with an undying love. ~Ephesians 6:24


Grace to all!

Thursday, January 5, 2012

Radically Being Revived

So I told you that I realized that 2011 was way too much about me...right? Well what do we do when we come to that realization? One of two things....make a plan for change or acknowledge the issue but do nothing to change it(no action). Sad to say I so often do the latter.

The last few days have been different though. I have felt more stirrings and longings for change than I have felt in a long time. It is like I am being resurrected. Dead inside but suddenly life being breathed back into me.

It has come to me from many angles. Reading Ann Voscamps 1,000 Gifts(I highly recommend it), listening to the Passion 2012 conference, visiting a friend with leukemia, sleepless nights, playing the worship music so loud I can't help but lift my hands, praying radical prayers, and most of all the desperation of a soul that was gasping for air.

SO what am I going to do about it?

I have an idea....a few actually.

I want 2012 to be a year of radical revival. Did you ever watch the movie Julie and Julia? She blogs about making something like 526 recipes of Julia Childs in 365 days. Well I am going to do Julie and Jesus only my name isn't Julie and it won't involve one stitch of cooking(at least I hope it doesn't).

I am going to read the Bible and do what it says.

I know what your thinking.....duh isn't that what Christians do??? But I ask you do we? Do we really? Does the sun never go down on our wrath? Do we never get angry and sin? Are we never discontent? I could go on but you get the point.

I know there will be times I mess up. I am human....but to the best of my ability I am going to ask God to lead me to a passage each day and I am going to just do what it says(minus any sacrificing of sheep and such in my backyard). But seriously I am going to live 2012 radically.

I am going to take the "dos" and the "don'ts" and the "when you's" and to the best of my abilities live it out. No overspiritualizing (as well put by Francis Chan....I won't be having a banquet with the poor in my heart) Just living it no matter what it is that He asks me to do that day. I am tired of living for myself. I want to hear and obey every prompting of the Holy Spirit no matter how wild and crazy it may be.

I am in need of some serious healing and I believe this is how God will choose to bring it about.

I will have a radical revival this year.

I am claiming it in the powerful name of Jesus Christ.

So feel free to check in on the blog and keep me accountable. 365 days.....undetermined amount of assignments requiring me to daily take up my cross and follow Him. I am putting on my God-goggles and I am going to move. No more stagnant pools that I swim in but I'm going to be wading in the Living Water!

Grace to all who love our Lord Jesus Christ with an undying love. ~Ephesians 6:24

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

Losing in 2012

The discouraged encourager.

The unmotivated motivator.

The restless peace giver.

Just a few words to describe me in 2011.

As I sit here evaluating the previous year and asking myself where things went wrong I can come up with only one answer.

Me.

I spent the last year swimming in the stagnant pool of my selfish desires and came out of it covered in muck.

I bought what I wanted. I indulged in things that I wanted. I wrote my book. Yes it was to inspire others but it was my idea. I complained when I was uncomfortable and when I had to put something I wanted aside to help others.

Everything was about me and I still wasn't happy. Of course I wasn't. It was never really supposed to be about me was it? It is that backwards theology Christ talked about all the time.

So as I glance back at the previous year and I dream forward into 2012 I am praying to be emptied of myself. I want to take up my cross and lose myself in order to find myself.

...and anyone who does not take his cross and follow me is not worthy of me. Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it. ~Matthew 10:38-39

There will be plenty of opportunities. Not only in the mundane everydayness of life but also in a trip to Haiti and another to Louisiana State Pen. I don't want to swim in that stagnant water of me anymore. I want to be emptied this year for others.

What about you? What are you learning from glancing back at 2011 and from dreaming forward to 2012? I would love to hear from you!

Be blessed!