Wednesday, May 8, 2013

50 Shades of Grey


I used to be very black and white.

Right vs. wrong.

Good vs. bad.

Very simple, right?

But as one year has faded into the next I have found myself living mostly in the grey. Finding that nothing is ever really as simple as it seems. I have also found that I am not who I used to be....thankfully!

Now if you came here for the title of this blog looking for some kind of steamy sex story you might as well leave now unless of course you are still curious then by all means please stay....all are welcome here. If you came here for the title of this blog to blast me on what that story is your energy I already know. I'm not doing a book review here but if I did what would you think of me???

The point is we see something or hear something and we are so quick to pass judgement or have a preconceived idea in our mind on what it is about when really things in life are rarely that black and white.

I used to pass judgement on all kinds of things.  Thinking all along that life is really simple and people just need to get it together when in reality I was not "together" myself most of the time.  I was just really good at hiding my struggles and this is where "the church" has gotten a bad name.  No wonder lost people only think of us as lacking compassion and being hypocritical. 

We clean up our act just enough to look the part and then pass judgement on those who don't when in reality we are not much different on the inside then the rest of the world.  Just because we don't drink, smoke, or get tatoo's and we keep ourselves safe in our church buildings we think we have it all figured out but inside we struggle with pride, gluttony, anger, envy, greed.....the list could go on.

The point is life is hard. 

We are all at different places.

We all deal with things differently and nobody really "wants" to stay lost but because of interactions with "the church" they are scared to death to be found.

Let's stop shining our lights as believers in places that are already lit up.  Let's start shining our lights into the dark places.  In this process things may fade a bit to grey.  That's ok.  I am not suggesting that our behavior change or that we have no morals but I am suggesting that our mentality towards the lost MUST change. God is big enough to handle that.  He will still be God and He will still be on His throne and judgement will still be His.

Sin will still be sin but maybe we will see the sinner differently.

The people I used to see through my lens of black and white and right and wrong are the very people that God dearly loves.  I want to see them as He sees them and I want to stop worrying about what others may think of my interactions with them.

And just maybe in the process we will shine the light into some of our own dark areas and we will find that life isn't as easy as black and white.

Today I am praying Colossians 3:12:

Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience.

 That's how I want to be clothed even if in doing so I wear 50 different shades of grey.....